I'm Juz Sayin

The Single Life

2012-01-10T23:10:00.000-06:00

Last year I entered the single world,and eleven months in I want OUT!! Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with being single, it's just not a preference for me. I like the comfort of a man, my man, not one that I'm sharing, not one that is a booty call.I think because I have been there and done that,now that I am a woman of a certain age,my taste have changed.

My needs are at a high demand now. They want me to stop putting them on the back burner and expose them to all they have been missing. It's funny how you miss something that you never really had, yet if you get a sample, you know that's what you needed all the time.
I am not designed to be alone. I've been that way all my life,and I think it's time I fill that slot.
I guess because I have a strong relationship with God I know my right and wrongs. I just tend to ignore the inner voice when I feel or hear it. Then I take my medicine when I finally decide to listen.
One thing I do know is tomorrow is not promised,and I don't want to feel like I missed something. I saved so much,yet I have done so little.

Never settle for less than you are willing to give~ Divalicious

A deep thought

2012-01-03T21:24:00.001-06:00

I was sitting here doing some work when my partner called out for me to come watch something with him. He was watching some series on HBO where the priest said something profound.

The priest said a man had gone to heaven and hell for a visit and learned a powerful lesson. After watching this clip so did I.

The man went to hell and saw souls sitting at a table with food prepared before them, yet their souls were howling and they were starving.Each soul had a spoon, but the spoon was too long to reach their mouth .Their frustration was their torment.
When he went to visit heaven, they too sat at a table with food prepared before them,their spoons were also to long to reach their mouths, however they were full and content because they fed each other.

I've been praying for clarity, understanding, and awareness. Of the three clarity has been a hard one. But hearing that passage made me realize something. We can't make it through life alone. We were not designed to be alone. The souls were tormented because they were too selfish to help each other,therefore they suffered and were in need.
The souls in heaven were content because they understood the meaning of a helpmate and a partnership. We must help each other in order reach our goals. Our father in heaven even says "if we take one step, he will take two". That is an example we should follow. Two heads are better than one. That being said, we should live our life with a partnership. We must feed each other in order satisfy our hunger. Selfishness hurts us, charity helps us.

Divalicious

Happy New Year!!!!!!!!

2012-01-02T10:03:00.000-06:00

Welp, another year has ended and new has begun. I didn't wait to the New Year to make changes and plans for my life that were needed and necessary to begin with. I started losing weight last year and I am continuing that process. I made some life changes that were necessary for me to be happy. I learned that those who should be the happiest for you, are usually the ones who end up being your biggest hater.

This year I pray for continued health and strength. I pray for peace and understanding ,and also clarity. And as I travel through life, I am opting to take the scenic route. I want to explore as well as see what life really is. I also pray that God prepares me for my "designated driver". Yeah, I want a co pilot. I know what loneliness feels like. Now I want to know what being in love with someone who loves you back feels like.
Unlike most I do not need a man, but I want one.

Until next time, be blessed and remember........
Life is a journey that will only end when you stop living it.

Goodbye 2011

2011-12-27T19:40:00.000-06:00

Every year we make New Years resolutions that we don't keep. We start out saying we're going to loose weight, only to give up by the second week in January. We vow to turn over a new leaf, get rid of the things in our life that don't mean us any good, only to turn around and replace them with something or someone far worse than what you got rid of in the first place.

I've seen some highs and lows this year and I made up in my mind I can't do nothing but get better. I will not allow the foolishness that some people have used to try and destroy me steal my joy. Change begins within, and it is up to us to pick the path we travel,as well as pay attention to our surroundings so that we may reach our destination safely.

Not everything in life is going to be a bed of roses,however it doesn't have to be stinking pile of shit either.

Live everyday like it's your last,enjoy every experience good or bad, and never let someone else choose your journey!

I am thankful for the lessons learned, and I am looking forward to my next destination.

Be blessed and have a prosperous New Year!

Starting Over

2011-07-15T15:51:00.000-05:00

We can spend so much of our lives carrying other people till we forget how to carry ourselves.
I don't believe in being bitter about things that happen in my life, I charge it all to the game. You can either accept it,learn from it and move on, or allow it to gnaw at you till you go crazy. I can bet you one thing though, the other party is not gonna be sitting there worrying about you or your feelings.

I only cried over one man and then I sucked it up and drunk me a glass of phuc it and haven't shed a tear since. Do I like being alone? No. But if I am in a relationship by myself, then I need to be alone. If I'm the only one fighting for the right and you can't understand my feelings, then it's not we that need to work on it it's you.

I have learned that those that are designed to help you end up hurting you as opposed to those who enter your life by coincidence. It hurts to let some people go, but it's necessary. Once we have learned the lesson, we have to apply it and move on. Some of us want to hold on to some people as a just in case policy.And then we get mad when it comes back to bite us in the ass.

Yesterday and I look forward to tomorrow. I am thankful for my past and blessed for my future. I will take all the lessons I've collected on this journey and use them as tools to get through the road ahead. Thank you to all those who played a part in my old life because very few are in my new one!

When God moves,let him do his job.He got you there in one piece didn't he?

Where do I go from here?

2011-06-08T02:31:00.000-05:00

The process has began,change was needed,so where do I go from here?

When I was a little girl I always dreamed that my wedding day would be one that people would never forget. I had it all planned I was going to get married at twenty-five,have my first child at thirty.I was going to be a best selling author,living in a nice quaint community with good schools,and lots of community service events I could participate in.Funny thing is due to a conversation I had with someone,when I was twenty,I didn't want to get married anymore. I mean if you can't be with the one you love....
Anyway I had my babies and focused on raising them then by the time I turned twenty-five I said I will be married by thirty.What's funny is very few people believed me. People who really knew me knew that you can never tell me I can't do something.
I guess my twenty-ninth year must have been the craziest year cause I was engaged twice that year. Although I was thirty when I got married,it wasn't but a month in.
Looking back,I did it cause I wanted to prove a point, instead of just waiting for what God had for me, I went after the right now.
Sad part is I prayed some crazy prayers and none of them came through,lol. I was asking questions I already knew the answers to.
I even fixed my mouth to say "Lord if this is my husband,we will have a baby". I know right. He kept saying to me "It's not my fault you can't get pregnant".
This is where it got kinda funny when you look back at it. I got pregnant twice.
One day I was thinking and I said I guess it happened to prove to him that I could,but I didn't have it cause he was not my husband. Yeah God has an awesome sense of humor!
My dream showed my husband and I raising our child as a unit. He never put in any work around here so I'm sure I would have had to handle everything on my own.

I still have my dreams and aspirations,and I'm sure they will happen sooner than later.I am a firm believer that it doesn't take forever to know what you want.I know that my one is still out there. And I am convinced that when we cross paths we both will know.
Matter of fact Ima throw this one out in the atmosphere: It is going to happen at the most inopportune moment and we both will know it!

In the meantime I will utilize my own advice and wait. Check out the scenery,enjoy the view and all the little,breathtaking moments that tend to leave me speechless.

Change is needed

2011-06-08T01:59:00.000-05:00

Once you have embarked on your process, you must decided what direction your journey will lead to next.
No one made me get married. I wanted to be saved from numerous situations only to create even more complex ones.The signs were there yet I walked past them thinking that with time and patience things would be better. I am a woman who needs her mind,body and soul stimulated. I need mental and physical stimulation and well I had neither. I am a firm believer that change begins with you.I didn't like who I was with or who I was becoming and after I tried everything I could think of, it was time to let it go.
I needed out before I began to hate him or he began to hate me. I knew it was official when he grabbed my arm and I literally got sick. The people around me saw the drastic change that occurred in the seven years he and I were together and the major difference it made when it was over.
Doctors had no idea how to treat me,no idea what to do with me,and they pretty much had given up on me.I had faith that I would be made whole again,even if no one else believed.

I am happy to report that I am back to doing what makes me happy. I wake up every morning with a smile on my face,and some days it hurts because I have not smiled in so long. When I laugh ,I really laugh,from deep within.What's even crazy is people say "girl you glowing",I start blushing, because I never realized it until now.
It feels good to have people in your corner for the right reasons. I have my sisters who go to bat for me and they truly only want me to be happy.No matter what I tend to go through,They are just a skip,hop,and jump away.

The fun loving energetic me has resurfaced and I have thrown caution to the wind and I am just ready to enjoy life and all it has to offer. It's funny how the older people see me and say somebody got your nose wide open. I am often saying un uh. But truth be told,I am just happy. I haven't been this happy in years.The last time I cried tears of joy was when my kids gave me an award for Mothers Day.

It's been a long time coming.And I am glad for second chances.Often times we have to go through a process to learn a lesson and to be able to know how to take care of a blessing when we receive it. Many things we want,we don't get right away because it's not meant for us at that time.We have to stay true to ourselves and wait for our season.

The Process

2011-06-08T00:39:00.000-05:00

You can talk about doing something till your blue in the face,until you follow thru,it's just that,talk. For the past year I have been going through an emotional roller coaster trying to figure out what I was going to do with my situations.One thing has always deemed true,you may help someone else sort out their mess,but you can never seem to sort out your own.

For seven years I fought the battle of good and evil vs right and wrong,only to end up at the place I am today.I asked a question awhile back, "What do you do when your relationship turns into a friendship". I realize now that there should have been a friendship established already before a relationship was even started. One should know how to communicate his or her feelings to their partner and how to express themselves.
I was so focused on being a good woman,and giving him everything I thought he needed from me,I lost myself.I went in a happy go lucky person ready to take on the world and within a year I was down and out feeling like there was no end in site.
When I would say how I felt no one seemed to understand what I was saying. Nor were they trying to help me make sense out of it.I was always told to go seek help from the Lord.I felt how could I,I didn't seek him when I got into this mess.I continued to smile when I really wanted to scream like a damn fool! I laughed, when I wanted to just cry. No one saw the pain I was dealing with.No one said its ok, cut your loses and move on. Instead I heard,we were happy for you cause we thought that's what you wanted. Or my all time favorite, "you made your bed, now lay in it"!

One thing I can truly say is no matter what it is, when you get sick and tired of being sick and tired, you will make changes in your life. The first thing I had to do was mentally prepare myself for this process.I have never really been alone. Someone has always been in my life rather it was just a friend or someone I was dealing with. I am not a person who likes a painful journey,I have some cool exes,we get along very well. And I extended that same olive branch to him when I decided enough was enough.

This process I am dealing with know is both a mental as well as an emotional one. I want to really know what love is by the time I am forty.I want to know what real passion feels like. I want to know that no matter the situation, I have a hero who will stand with me through the storm.

I have come to realize that waiting is not always a bad thing,it will enlighten us with details we would have missed had we jumped the gun and rushed into something neither person was ready for. Marriage is a responsibility not everyone is equipped for. there is more to it than just sex and cooking. If your mate has no emotional or physical connection to you ,then not only are you fighting a loosing battle, but you may need to start your own process......................

Divalicious

Taking My Life Back........Part 2

2011-05-25T19:16:00.001-05:00

A few weeks after that ordeal I was hospitalized.In a nutshell I was doing too much.I had reached my breaking point.God had told me to slow down,but I would speedup and that's when he had to intervene and make come to a complete stop.I had to learn how to allow other people to take care of me,(I have yet to master that)He was cool at first,but after bout three days in the hospital,he started tripping.I wasn't in a position to talk so I said go home!After a week they sent me home with nurses and physical therapist and all the bells and whistles.A few months later my mom had quadruple bypass surgery.I went to the hospital and stayed a whole week until she came home.I was told you ain got no business out there let someone else do it.I said "that's MY momma right or wrong she gave me life and I ain leaving till she leave and if you got a problem with it you need to be gone when I get there"!We ain have no more lip bout that!

I was telling myself,"you got lost in everyone else".I stayed in the beginning because failure is not an option.But if you are in a place that you are not destined to be then how are you failing?This man has literally made me sick.I had minor ailments growing up but never this bad.I hurt from time to time that's normal.the older I get the worse it seems to get but I did something that no one knew I was doing.I went and checked in a hotel for four days by myself.Didn't have a sick day the entire time.I've gone out with the girls or stayed the night with friends and you guessed it,no problems.I know that I can recover from what ever is ailing me,but the only way it will truly happen is if I be true to myself.This morning I decided that I will live life and not exist in it.I have the information I need to go forth with walking away from this madness and never looking back.I know what God's voice sounds like now,and I know that he will answer you with a calming voice,and if you do not hear him,he will get his point across.I am practicing patience and although I am known for expressing myself and being upfront,I am going to sit on my hands and allow the man to take the lead.I might even try being submissive....okay that's a bit much but I plan on doing what is needed so that when my real husband arrives,I can receive him and give him all of me

Someone who will captured my heart a long time ago,had to remind me,Miss.Positivity that there is light at the end of the tunnel.Thank you for reminding me of who I am and I long to be, and um can I have my heart back?

Taking My Life Back........

2011-05-25T18:43:00.000-05:00

Today is suppose to be a day of celebration and joy.My Aunt is slowly but surely embarking on her goal to live to be 100.She turned 83 today and it was just bittersweet.It's funny things always happen on a day you will remember for the rest of your life.While I am preparing to relaunch my business and prepare to leave Florida,I am also about to prepare to live life by myself.

I woke up at 4:30 this morning with my thoughts in heavy rotation.I struggled and fought with alot of things.In the midst of this fight and struggle I realized that I have always lived my life for others.I did what I was programmed to do. I realize what my friend has been telling me all the time and that's the truth.God has a great sense of humor. He will place people in our lives for unknown and unforeseen reasons.
I have prayed many prayers asking God to show me if this man was my husband,and each time little things would happen and I neglected it because it was to small for the naked eye to see. Two months in I knew this was not where I was suppose to be. Everything he said we were going to do before "I do", we no longer could afford it.This was so not the vision in my head that I had when I thought of marriage.I was raised in a household where my aunt and uncle never fought in front of me and they NEVER went to bed mad.

I married a man that was the complete opposite of me and anyone I dealt with.He was different when my friends met him they did a double take.My preference was my height or taller,muscular build.I liked caramel,milk chocolate was good too,but he had to have good hair and a pretty smile.Yeah I was attracted to pretty boys.He was dark chocolate,good hair,and the biggest no no: golds in his mouth! But I must say he keep a tooth brush in his mouth so he made it through.He complimented me,he even went so far as to buy the hair for me glue or sew in my hair.We were always dressed nice and so were the kids.we had a day for me and a day for the kids.Within two weeks he proposed.That should have been the first flag on the play.
Everyone knows I am a helpless romantic and I ain saying you got to go all out,but just saying "So you gon marry me or what"? is not really the best way to do it.I looked him dead in the eye and said many have asked but none were chosen due to the fact that just like you they ain have a ring!.He said alright I got you.I didn't think nothing else about it cause like the song said I heard it all before.A month later another flag on the play. We were driving down the street and he stopped at the traffic light handed me the box and said "here's your ring,I'm going to keep the receipt in my wallet so you go to acting up I'll take it back and get my money back"
PENALTY!!!!
I just shook my head and closed the box.The writing was on the wall big as day the day we got married.I asked was he going to take the day off he said no,work don't stop just cause we got married.I cooked dinner,fed the kids,fixed his plate and put it in the microwave like I always did.Took a shower and got ready for bed.Five minutes before he came home I heated up his food,fixed him a drink and sat it by the bed.Normally I would sit up with him while he ate,I fell asleep.Any other time he would wake me up and try to go there, not this night. It would be two months before we consummated the marriage.Little did I know this was how the rest of our years would be.

What ever needs to be done,I'm going to make it happen,all I ask is that you have my back.I felt the need to be closer to God,he told me,"You can go to church all you want,I won't be going". A few years ago I was deep in the church,and I know God was getting tired of me asking him that question cause he had done just about slapped hell naw on my forehead.Well one Sunday the musician approached me in a small space and leand into me and said" I find it odd that you say your married yet you don't wear a ring or his last name.I also find it interesting that your husband sees you leaving the house looking and smelling good and doesn't try to see where your going."He had my back against the wall and I could feel fear in my throat.Sad part was there was two other people standing there watching it all.My son William walked up and said "Mommy you ok?" Yes sweetie you ready?I asked him fighting back the tears.I didn't go back to church after that.You would think he would have notice being that I was at church every Sunday and Wednesday,and did I meantion I was the choir director?

Letting Go the Past Part 3

2011-05-24T20:58:00.000-05:00

The last two parts ended with my dad. Well this is why it ended that way. All my life I grew up wanting to know who my father was.for years I heard it was one man,and years later I heard it was another man. When I moved to New York I went to meet the man who took part in creating me.I knew I was too big to be daddy's little girl,but I had high expectations for my dad.All my life I wanted a protector.Someone to love me unconditionally without fault.When my plane touched down in New York it was to be the happiest day of my life.Long gone was all the constant bickering,the insults,hurt the pain, and aggravation.I was given a fresh slate,no one knew me and no one could poison the thoughts of others.I sat down with my father and told him all that I had gone through in my 18 years.He promised me I didn't have to go through any of that anymore,and then within two weeks,I was living with my step sister because my dad decided he wanted a side piece and not a daughter.

When I got to New York all I heard was "Damn you fine", or" I need to move to Florida if they make like you".Then the competition began,everyone was on the hunt for who was gonna sex the new girl first.So not only was I trying to keep my father from it,I was trying to keep the nikkas at bay too.My saving grace was my older brother whom I hadn't met yet.This nikka had street cred like a mug.He was well respected in the hood.Matter of fact only 3 dudes stepped to me the whole nine months I was there.

The first one was Nigel.I ain know that he was a reformed gangsta.I went from being a laid back chick from the O who enjoyed writing poetry,and dreaming big to being pursued by men with power.
I never have and I never will want someone else's blood on my hands and even though my father did some foul shit to me I had to beg for his life.He used to take photos of me and sell them to his old friends.He did alot of other sick shit but those are his sins and I gave them to God.Nigel was 28 and I was 18,he was my protector.And although I wasn't dating him he still had someone watching out for me.

Marvin was the next dude.Everyone in the Burg knew his family and the fact they all were psycho was like RUN GIRL!!!All the ladies called him Marvelous,He was just Marvin to me.I ain chase after him,matter of fact I wasnt thinking bout his ass.I was in survival mode.In the public the were saying" This bitch can't be that damn happy" and on the inside I was dead.I had nothing else to live for.What can I go home to? I have nothing. My father called home and told all kinds of lies and then told me that my family didn't want me to come home they were happy without me.

The last dude was Theodore.His father introduced me to him.He was in the Air Force and we hit it off. We dated 2 months, I got pregnant,he went to Germany,I went back to Florida and life goes on.

What's amazing is I wasn't afraid of telling my family I was pregnant.I was concerned about "him" finding out.My mom told me he came looking for me that summer.I wrote him when I came back.But it didn't feel the same.He didn't talk like he used to.He was always so happy to hear from me no matter what.When he came home for a visit we finally had an opportunity to give in to our feelings,him being the stand up guy he was,couldn't,he was about to get married and he had a baby.I felt my heart drop in my stomach. I say that because I never made anyone else feel the way I made him feel.But by him telling me he was about to get married meant that he had given his all to someone else.

Three months after I last saw him,I gave birth to my second son.This moment was bittersweet because his father was killed three months prior.Seemed like no matter what I tried to prevent it I ended up with two little girls afterward. I over heard the nay sayers saying no one is going to marry her with four children. Hmph, I looked at my Things to do my 30 list and there it was number 1.Get married by thirty.

I met a guy who started off strong,but later I found that he didn't work well under pressure.He wanted the reward,but he didn't want to put in work. If someone said something disrespectful,he would say "I ain got nothing to do with that".I would ask what can I do to make this better.his response was,"I don't know".
I asked "Why did you marry me" again he said " I don't know"

All my life I have fought for a position in someone's heart.I never punished anyone else for someone else's crime.Love is an action and well Im bursting at the seams with it so I guess it means I need to let my guard down,allow "him" in and pray that we finish this journey together.

I am no longer angry because it's not worth it.I am able to share my story with those who have lived a similar life who may not see the light at the end.I am just thankful for the experience that is called life!

Letting Go the Past Part 2

2011-05-24T13:16:00.000-05:00

I was sick of going through all this unnecessary bull.These people where making my life a living hell.I wanted to save myself for marriage but these people had a way with words. For some reason I always felt like I had to prove a point.I wasn't having sex back then,my summer love came close twice to being my first, yet we never had a chance to.Looking back when I did loose my virginity,I didn't feel like I was loosing something sacred. I liked the guy but I didn't love him.I was becoming overwhelmed by my home life.I made was on homecoming court,no one cared.I was a Rosette of Spring,no one cared.I went to the prom,no one cared.I say my life spiral out of control and no one seemed to care.By the time I was 17 I needed some help. I was at the end of my rope.I spoke to my counselor and told her I felt like the world was closing in on my and there was no light left.In so many words she confirmed what was being said and I left there that day feeling that the world would be better without me.I had missed my bus so I had to walk home.I was suppose to ride around the field during half time. Instead I walked by the stadium and walked home.I walked in my room and pulled out letters that I had read over and over again.Thought of what might have been,then I put the letters up and I tried to think of a painless way to go.
About an hour later a man came to the house.He had been informed by my guidance counselor that I might try to hurt myself.He spoke with my aunt and then with me.
I packed my bag.(had no idea I wouldn't be needing it).
I was brought into the Lakeside Behavioral Services Unit.I had to take all my clothes off and bath from head to toe with quell,I had to give them all my personal belongings including my bra and panties.I asked why and I was told to make sure you don't try to hang yourself.

I spent almost a week in the facility.While in there I listened to others but I didn't indulge or reveal any of my pain.I just knew I would never threaten to kill myself again! The biggest slap in the face came when my aunt refused to come get me and the police threatened to put her in jail if she didn't come and get me.But then again what can you expect? They never stood by you before,so what makes this different?

I spent the next six months trying to figure out what I was going to do next.Once I turned 18 I could leave this hell hole and do what? It has been programmed on my head that no one wants you .You ain nothing.Well in my mind I'm going to prove them wrong.I placed a call I would later regret, to the only man who was suppose to love me.......My dad

Letting Go the Past

2011-05-24T11:12:00.000-05:00

Looking back over my life I see a lot of things that should not have happened,but then I guess if they didn't,I wouldn't have my story.Unlike most people I don't say why me.I say why not me.I figure I was chosen to go through these trials to be an example to others,that you can go through the storm and still come out dry on the other side.

I had dreams of becoming a doctor I knew who I wanted to marry and how many kids we were going to have.I was going to write a best selling book and be on Oprah.I shared this with my family and instead of the encouragement I thought I was going to get,I was greeted with, "You ain gon be shit just like yo mammy"!"You gon have a house full of baby's and no husband"." You think you the only one that boy seeing? he too cute to be with you,you just something for him to do while he here".

I don't know why these words hurt so much,I mean I have heard them a million times before. Every time someone took a interest in me it was for the wrong reasons.They never believed in me nor have they ever tried to protect me.When I look back,I feel like I was going through a cruel initiation process,where I had to be subjected to all this evilness just to be accepted by these people.

From the age of 5-18 I was physically abused or molested. I grew up in a house where that was normal.In school they said it was wrong,at home "you's a damn lie" or,"you ain have no business walking round like that"!
I remember my Aunt used to drop me off to the babysitter and they would be playing cards and the lil old man would tell me to stick my hand in his pocket.Then he would say "squeeze it". My Godmother heard him,but she whupped my ass.Um what part did I miss?Then he would ask if I could walk across the street to his house to get some candy.She said yes,He had a room full of candy,but I couldn't leave until I let him stick his tongue in my mouth.
Looking back at it now,I was five what the hell man!He tried again,but I told him I didn't want any candy.My Godmother must have figured it out cause I never seen him over there no more,but the damage was done.

I grew up being told if you were raped it was your fault. It is never anyone's fault!The victim is never to blame!

I always felt awkward growing up. No one never really paid attention to me like they did the other girls. I was the cool chick.Later I was told that I always had a unit on my face and I didn't look like that chick.
I dated from time to time and then I met my "summer love".We were soul mates from the beginning.I would count the days till he would return back the O.He may have been playing for the summer,but I was playing for keeps.Many days I was told how he was too cute to want to talk to me.I was just something for him to do.What hurt the most was being told that "every town furnishes it's own port". Meaning "You are not his one and only, you just his back up."

I carried a lot of hurt and pain but none more greater than the one I would feel when the one man who was never ever supposed to hurt me killed my soul and my spirit. My Father........

True Love

2011-05-23T10:49:00.000-05:00

I'm amazed at how much things have changed yet they seem to remain the same. Have you ever longed for someone so bad that you could feel their presence around you? And when you finally reconnect, it's as though they never left the room.When you can talk about certain things and they are willing to listen and not judge you then you have found your "rock". When they are instrumental in pushing you to be the best you can be, and they are willing to catch you when you when fall, you have found your "hero".

Many times we over look what we need and seek what we want, only to turn around and pray that our needs will be met. When the pain sets in and hurt settles in for a stay,you pray your rock will come and protect you.
You may be apart for years, but you will not be reconnected by chance. You will enter each others life in order to have a second chance to finish what you started. Nothing in life is easy,it takes hard work and determination.

Our souls have search the world until they could connect.Now the flesh is awaiting the opportunity to do the same. Real love does not die.

I will wait for you, with the understanding that I must be loyal and true.I promise to respect you as a person as well as a man and to know my place as a woman.
After all, I was created from you,to be your help mate
To stand with you and to honor you.

Divalicious

Top 10 Things I wish people would stop doing................

2011-04-06T10:30:00.000-05:00

I know I haven't SAID anything in awhile, but it's better late than never!
Here are the top 10 things I wish people would stop doing!

10. Letting a child over the age of 1 suck a bottle or a pacifier! That is not cute! Anyone over the age of 1 is no longer a baby!

9. My big sistah's and my little little girls, just because they make it in your size, doesn't mean you should wear it! Stop wearing clothes that are not age or body appropriate!

8. Stop acting like you can cook if all you did was add water and stir!

7. Stop preaching to me! Especially those who don't live what they preach!

6. Stop sending me vulgar text messages, if you can't send it to your momma, don't send it to me!

5. Stop bragging about how much you pay for a service, then in the same breath, you want me to do it for free!

4. Stop acting like you ain never did anything wrong in your life. We have all sinned,move on!

3. Stop getting mad when you are only asked to bring cups and plates to the cookout, it just means no one wants yo eat your cooking.

2. Stop sending me mass emails saying the same thing!

1. Stop sending me emails about absolutely nothing!

The Loneliness pt4

2011-01-17T07:02:00.002-06:00

"Jared what are you doing here!" Jade was half excited half panicked.

"I was in the neighborhood on business and I decided to check on you".

"I'm fine ,I was taking a nap I'll call you later when I wake up".

"Jade what is wrong with you?Up until a few months everything was fine,now you don't come out,your always busy or out of town.I come by here to see how your doing and you all but slam the door in my face!"

Jared now is really not a good time,I'm really tired and I need this nap!"

"Jade it's one o'clock in the afternoon,why are you napping?Are you sick,you need anything?"

"No Jared I'm fine,I'm just.....

"Pregnant!Since you can't tell me I'll ask.How long did you think you could hide this from me Jade?We were careless that night,so there has always been a what if.But you went on like everything was fine.When you didn't show up to the annual Governor's Ball I knew it was something.That's the highlight of the year and you never miss it.Then I saw you leaving Felipio's the other day....

"I didn't see you in Felipio's."

"No you didn't cause If you did I would have known a lot sooner that my best friend was carrying my child!"

"Jared I can explain."

"Can you really Jade? I mean when was I gonna find out?When you could fit it in your got damn schedule!?"

"Jared come inside so we can discuss this in private".

"No Jade I don't want to discuss it.I have tried to show you that there is more to life than being a woman scorned,I love you more than you love yourself,but because of what Mitchell did,you punish yourself by being alone.You can not and you will not do that to my child!You want to be alone that's on you,but my child is not going to be tainted,my lawyer will contact your lawyer by the end of business!"

Jade stood there in disbelief.She was so hell bent on not getting hurt,she didn't realize she hurt herself more than anyone else could have.And now the thought of Jared seeking legal action against her is proving to be a bit much.

This is not how this was supposed to be.All I wanted was to be left alone,in my loneliness.

The Loneliness pt3

2011-01-16T21:25:00.000-06:00

Jade is still sitting in the exact same spot as she was when she got the call.Her ex husband whom she caught fucking her assistant had called to ask her she could pull some strings to get him a reservation to the Grand Opening to Jules newest restaurant.
"Mitchell,out of all the people to call why me.You have free range to all the who's who here in the Chi."
"Well for whatever reason Jade I can't get in and I need to be on the scene".
"Mitchell I don't hang out anymore so I can't help you"
"Can't you talk to your friend Jared?"
"I'll get back to you Mitchell".
"Thanks Jade,talk to you soon".

"Jared the nerve of him trying to use my friendship with you for his own selfish gain!"
Jade and Jared were sitting in her loft having a late dinner.She was trying to be there for Jared as he had been for her.
"Well Jade the reason he is not on the guest list is because I didn't like the way he treated you and I really don't care for him" Jared confessed.
"Trust me you owe me no explanation,I just can't believe how comfortable he was about it."

Without warning Jared leaned in and kissed Jade,She wanted to stop him so bad,yet his kiss was so breath taking she wanted it to last forever.Then out of nowhere Jade straddled Jared as their kiss grew more passionate.She undid his tie,he unzipped her dress,he buried his head into her bosoms and gently kissed each one in a quick one two motion he laid her down on the sofa and kissed her all the way to her happy trail.He teased her clit through her panties until she was soaking wet.She let a gasp out as he placed two fingers deep inside of her.Jared sent Jade's body into a frenzy as she came back to back.She was panting feverishly and just as she was on the brink of cumming again,he entered her,long deep strokes,their bodies beating to their own drums.Jared touched parts of her body that she had shut off.He woke up every part of her being,and when he came,they came together Jared and Jade made love twice more after that.And as soon as it started,it ended,Jade hinted about a long day,and Jared took the hint and left.Once again Jade was in her world of loneliness.No one made her go there but her.Jared and Jade talked about what happened the previous night and while Jared wanted to pursue something with Jade,she shut him down.Jared respected her decision.
Six months had passed since they had seen each other per Jade's request.So imagine the surprise Jared received when he stopped by Jade's loft unannounced to check on her.

The Loneliness pt2

2011-01-16T20:18:00.002-06:00

"Alexis,I love you like a sister but I do not want to meet anyone!"
"Jade its been several years since you and Mitchell divorced and he is living his life,you should get on with yours!"
"Really Alexis give it a rest!"
"Your so pig headed Jade,you have let too many years go by being lonely because of what that bastard did to you,you deserve to be happy too!"

Jade knew there was truth to this but she just didn't want to be bothered.Unbeknown to anyone,Jade had met someone a year ago at a book signing.His name was Jared Miller.He had the prettiest smile she had ever seen.He was the owner of Jules, one the biggest fine dining restaurant chains in the country.They happen to meet by chance that day and they became fast friends.Jared was in a relationship which made it even easier for Jade to deal with him.She felt it was safe because he was off limits.The communicated often online or via text message.They would bump into each other at many social functions,but that was as far as it went.Then one day out of the blue Jared called to inform her that he and Lydia broke up.
WOW was all she could say.She didn't know how to take this news.Would it change the nature of their relationship?Jade liked being in the friend zone.What would she do if he wanted to step outside of that?

Jade had gotten accustom to the loneliness and she had to find a way to get Jared out of her life so that she could continue to be lonely.

"Jade did you hear me?"
"O I'm sorry what did you say Alexis?"
"I said your cellphone is ringing".
What know Jade thought out loud,I don't even recognize this number....
"Hello".
"Jade it's me Mitchell".

The Loneliness

2011-01-16T20:17:00.001-06:00

"Jade I can't do this anymore".This kept playing over and over in Jade's head for over a year.Mitchell had left that message on her voice mail on what was to be their fifth year anniversary. Jade had met Mitchell when she was an up and coming magazine editor.He was an intern at a major record label.Within two years they both were the hottest power couple in Chicago.They lived a fairy tale life until Jade walked in and saw her assistant Jazmine bent over the Italian leather sofa Mitchell had custom made Jade on their one year wedding anniversary.
Nothing was said by either.The smug son of a bitch even went as far as finishing what he started.Jade left what she had called her home for the past seven years and went to a nearby Four Seasons and tried to piece together what had just happened.

Of all people why Jazmine?Did he hate me that much that he would sleep with the one person he knew would hurt me the most?A week had past before Jade could muster the strength to acknowledge what happen.That's when she heard the voice mail Mitchell left.He went on about how he had checked out the relationship months ago.He even went on to tell her how Jazmine did things that she was to stuffy to do.She couldn't believe what she was hearing.And s if it would make a difference he went on to say he was willing to split their assets in half and end the marriage as quickly as possible.She was in no way prepared for his next statement.Jazmine was pregnant with his child.

This was three years ago,and although the baby was not Mitchell's and he had since moved on,Jade had vowed to stay single and throw herself into her career.To everyone else she was very well put together,but at night when she was all alone she cried herself to sleep.She didn't like being alone.But after all she went through,she couldn't allow anyone in for fear she would be hurt again.

A Relationship thought

2011-01-14T11:17:00.000-06:00

It's funny that single people want relationships and people in relationships want to be single.I often hear single people wanting the commitment of a significant other.What they don't realize is some mates look good on paper but they can't deliver the goods.Would you rather have someone who pays the bills and supplies the financial part,or would you rather have a partner who is there mentally as well as physically?
There is no unwritten rule that a man can't be there for you mentally,physically,and financially.I have proven time and time again to be a helpmate.I would for once in my life like to experience what it feels like to have a spiritual,and supportive partner in return.I wish that my efforts to be a good woman were not done in vain.It is so many that complain about not having a good woman or man and when they receive one,they break their necks trying to leave them.No sense in putting up a facade trying to play the role of a character you know nothing about.
Just because you are in the same room with someone does not mean your spending time with them.Just because we eat at the same table,don't mean we break bread together.In life there are givers and takers,and unfortunately alot of givers get taken because their heart is pure and the taker's isn't. I love the lessons I have learned in life.They taught me to be a better woman.That makes me a stronger woman who in turn know's how to survive the storm.

Priceless

2011-01-12T10:50:00.000-06:00

Okay I have been going through some shyt for a minute know and well I said this year I was gonna be the Diva that I am and live out loud.Well as I was traveling down Divadom,I stumbled upon some shyt for your azz!I had been saying for a hot minute that I was tired of this relationship and it wasn't me.I wanted out.Imagine my surprise when I found out that I was never IN!
Seems that my name was registered wrong at the hospital when I was born and because of this,I lived half my life as one person and the other half as someone else only to find that who was first was who I really am.Aint that a bitch?

marriage $100.00
Divorce $299.00
Never being married in the first place............Priceless

Divalicious

From Friends to Lovers and back to Friends.....

2011-01-12T10:40:00.000-06:00

Can friends who incorporate sex into their friendship continue to be friends?

I think that is based on the friendship and honesty.If you can talk about your friend about any and everything then if and when you decide to take it to the next level,you should be comfortable expressing yourself mentally as well as physically.Not everyone is equipped to play grown up.Sometimes we always want what we can not have and once we have it,we don't know what's next.

I not only give my thoughts but I will share my experience so here goes.I had a friend that sent chills up my spine,his voice made my legs buckle and his smile made me wanna have his babies!I know right.He made me want to be all those things my man wouldn't let me be.We had a chemistry so strong till it wasn't safe to be around each other out of fear of leaving the friend zone.Well one day we gave into the heat and I felt shyt I ain know I could feel.Made me wanna put this Nikka to sleep every night!Not sure how he felt cause he had to play the "cool" role.I often think of what could have been,but I can't live my life on a hope and dream so Every time I think of the good,good I think of him.If would have stayed around,he would have known that I wasn't in the situation I thought I was in.I needed my friend for that moment but I lost him when he became my lover for that one night.

Dicalicious

Ms. I Really Need it

2011-01-12T08:20:00.002-06:00

Anticipation has been building up for years now
I can spot you in a crowded room
But you act like you scared to give into me
One day there will be nothing but space and opportunity
You had a girl
I had a man
I respected that
Now with that out the way I want my chance
To feel the heat between the sheets
Love faces is all good but good dick
brings out fuck faces
and I need you to take me to places
that I ain never seen
I need to ride that pole you got hidden in your jeans
I see you acting like you shy
That shyt played out in 92
I wanna fuck
U
To the best of my abilities
Give you the shyt I write about
Flip you up and turn you out
Make you feel the heat I deliver between these sheets
It's not a game
Sex off da chain
Love faces work for so long
But fuck faces show how deep the stroke been going
So come spread my hips as you kiss both my lips
Let me feel the pole till I loose control
Flip me six ways to Sunday
Make me skip to work on Monday
Leg still shaken
Ain no sense in faking
It is what it is
That good dick will get u
all the time
Now I gotta pop it back
To make it mine
O
I know you ain think
you was gonna get urs
And I ain get mine
Fuck love faces
I got what I needed
Till next week
Yours Truly
Ms. I really needed it

Phuc U Symphony!

2011-01-11T19:41:00.000-06:00

Time heals all wounds
Well it's not enough time in the day to heal the mess you made
You couldn't let well enough alone
You had to have me as your own
I was chilling in my world
You couldn't stand it you wanted me as your girl
I gave you the best of me
thinking you and I would always be
Stronger with every year
but everyday I shed a tear
for the love I once knew
Lost it all when I got with you
I got lost withing in myself
I sent word that I needed some help
You took the love I gave
And in turn I was your slave
I catered to you
but your heart was never true
I gave you the best that I got
You spit on it
And that says alot
For all the hell you've given me
Here is my Phuc you symphony!

Divalicious

Trey Songz - Can't Be Friends (Official Video)

2011-01-11T10:41:00.000-06:00

The End

2011-01-11T09:41:00.001-06:00

Why are you here?
I mean you have said time and time again you are not happy
You often remind me of the life you used to have before I entered
How much fun you used to have
All the things you used to do
You know all the intimate things you did to prove to me
That you were worth my time
Worth taking a chance on
Now I can't even get a second glance
When I put on something sexy
Or change my hair
You haven't looked at me in so long
You haven't noticed the ring is no longer there
I stopped wearing it years ago,because my fingers would swell
Then I stopped wearing it all together cause my life became a living hell
I wanted you to love
You wanted to just care
I wanted forever
You just wanted a spare
I gave you my heart
And you gave me your ass
To kiss when you found another
To add to your wish list
I was just a fantasy
And you tried to take the best of me
and make me undesirable for the next man
But see your plan won't work
Cause a real man will find me in his search
And complete the missing piece
Farewell to you
and all the hell you put me through
The end is here

Def Comedy Jam Cedric The Entertainer , George Willbourne , Sonya D and ...

2011-01-10T19:33:00.000-06:00

I'm forever your lady,you forever my boo

2011-01-10T10:17:00.000-06:00

When you need me I'm there
I'm down for you I sear
there will never be another
to take my place
I cook for you
I clean for you
do all the things them silly hoes won't do
I don't sweat what you do
cause your hustle strong
I know my place and how to sit quietly on the throne
I give you respect cause you are my king
I keep it right I keep it tight
my swag fly and my walk is mean
Aint no other gonna put up with you
I'm forever your lady
You forever my boo
I got your back no matter what
I raise my glass and toast to you
You the real deal
that's why I have your meals hot and ready
smoking at the table
bath water ready
sheets turned back
you ain got speak not one word
I'm down for you
I got your back
I'm forever your lady
You forever my boo
Lets keep it tight cause I got you.

WANTED!!

2011-01-10T10:14:00.002-06:00

Wanted,
A good man
One who understands that I am a woman
I was made to be his companion
His helpmate
His lover
His friend
His secret keeper
His lover for life

Wanted,
A man that is secure with his self
A hard worker
One who understands that communication is key
We must become a unit in order to be a driving force
To make a successful relationship

Wanted,
A man who is not afraid to be a man
Plan the date
Open the door
Walk beside me,not in front of me
Hug me just because
Kiss me like it's the last time

Wanted,
A man who does the things just because
A man who pays attention to the little things I do to make him happy
A man who knows that my world can get complicated
But as a team we can conquer anything

Wanted,
A man who is not afraid to pray with me
or for me
A man who inspires me to be the best me
Until I am presented with this man,
I will continue to mentally prepare myself to receive this good man,
I will clean out all those past hurts and make room for this good man
to enter into my life
I will let go my past disappointments
I will wash away all the pain that others have left
And when my wanted man is finally captured,
Our slate will be clean,we will buy all the materials together
And build together.

Divalicious

Private Property!

2011-01-10T09:49:00.002-06:00

You banged on my door
Pleading with me to let you in
I told you up front,I am not for games
Ive been saving my heart for someone who was worthy of it
You asked for my heart and in return you would give me your soul
Was this a same time transaction?
Or did you think you were gonna come in and take my heart and hold it in the palm of your hand
And command it to do as you pleased?

Did you think you were going to just stroll up in here and rearrange shyt the way it best suited you?
I mean you were the hunter for years,then as soon as I let you catch me,you decided there was more fun in the chase
than it was with the prey.
I listened as you went on and on about what a man wants and what he needs
I was that woman naturally
Then it became too much for you to handle
You said,"You are an amazing woman and you are going to make some man very happy"
Funny,I was only trying to make you happy.
You wanted the lease with an option to buy
Only to sublet the building to another potential buyer
So you could brag about living there first

When you come into my life,make sure your intentions are good
Don't try and tear don my wall knowing full dayum well you have no intentions
Of renovating that space into something beautiful and breath taking
My heart is private property so keep your ass off unless I invite you in!

Just because it is exposed does not mean you can touch it!

Pay Attention

2011-01-04T06:50:00.000-06:00

There is always thunder before lightening and a calm before the storm,so when things start happening,pay attention.If your mind is telling you no,follow your mind.They say the heart don't lie,yes it do,follow the little voice,it never leads you wrong!

Divalicious

Your Body's Calling pt 3

2011-01-01T12:22:00.002-06:00

How the hell we get in the bed and he just wanna cuddle? Nikka I coulda cuddled in my own bed with my pillow!I didn't realize i said it out loud until I hear him laugh his azz off.Jay I don't see or hear a dayum thing funny!
He starts to kiss the corners of my mouth,I turn my head and he follows it,I feel his fingers massage my nipples and it makes me so hot and bothered.He replaces his fingers with his lips and I can feel her getting moist.A moan escapes my lips as his kisses start to travel down south.
He reaches his destination and I feel electrical currents go through my body.He's sucking on the hood of my clit and just when I feel as if I can't take it anymore he puts a finger deep into the center of my earth.and within two strokes I have creamed all over his finger.My legs start to shake and I can't breathe.He continues to work me over and I'm surprised at my own self because I am riding his finger and tongue like I plan on riding him as soon as I can reverse the roles.He reaches for a condom,I and slides it on in a one two motion.And just as easy he slides it on he enters me.He starts with just the head,and then he gives me all that he has.I wrap my legs around his waist and I give him all of me. I tell him to lay on his back and I proceed to ride the wave to extacy.He grabs my hips and holds me tight and we both cum together.
I guess good things come to those who wait huh? Jay whispers in my ear as we try and catch our breath.
Yes it does I reply,Now we can cuddle all night,and we both laugh.........

Your Body's Calling pt 2

2011-01-01T12:03:00.000-06:00

It's 11:25p.m and I am in the elevator at the Rosen Hotel headed to the tenth floor for lord knows what.Curiosity got the best of me,I took a long hot bubble bath,and slowly sipped a glass of Moscato. After calming my nerves,I say to myself,I have nothing to lose.So I prepare to take the first step of coming out of my shell and living my life without regret.
As I step off the elevator and approach the door,I do a quick glance in the mirror.I am wearing a black gown with a split up to there five inch stiletto's,hair pinned up and my favorite scent sprayed on,24 Faubourg. I continue to the short distance to the door of the penthouse suite,I take in a deep breath and I knock on the door.

The door opens and Jay is standing there looking sexy as hell with a black tuxedo,black shirt white tie.The room is dimly lit and Luther Vandross is playing.I am floating on a cloud as he takes my hand and leads me to the center of the room.My favorite song begins,I get lost in his arms as he holds me tight,just as Luther is singing "If only for one night."

We seem to dance for what seems like hours,the candles are dancing to the same beat as we are,he goes to speak and I place a finger to his lips and shake my head no.I don't want words to destroy this moment that I have rehearsed in my mind for the past three years.He seems to read my mind and we continue to sway back and forth.There is a knock on the door that brings me back to reality.It's room service bringing up a bottle of champagne and strawberry's.
Jay tips the concierge and closes the door.I glance at the clock and realize it's almost midnight.I jump when the cork pops,Jay however thinks this is funny.He pours us a glass of bubbly just as the countdown begins.
Here's to a year with endless possibilities,I say,Cheers,says Jay.The clock strikes 12 and I get the one thing I have been longing for all night,a kiss.No peck on the cheek,or a bump on the lips,it's a full fledged kiss. One of those mind blowing,knee buckling kisses.

Trey Songz Love Faces is playing and I can't take it anymore and neither can he,jacket and tie come off,I then lead his hand to the zipper on my dress and he slowly slides it down the track. I unbutton the buttons on his shirt as he slides me out of my dress. I am standing there in a black lace bra and black crotchless thongs.I can feel him stiffen as he see's his package he's unwrapped.He leads me to the bedroom,he lays me on the bed and then proceeds to undress himself.He crawls in bed beside me and says, " I just want to hold you until we fall asleep.........WTF?

Your Body's Calling pt 1

2011-01-01T12:02:00.000-06:00

Bryn,hello are you listening to me?I'm sorry Lysa,what did you say?I was telling you about Steph but know I wanna know who got your mind wondering.Girl I'm sorry just thinking bout how I'm going to spend the New Years tonight.But to answer your question I told you, Steph only does what you allow him to do.You guys have an open marriage only he's the only one taking advantage of it.Your right admits Lysa,but why don't you join use for the New year.Look Lysa,I already told you,that was a one time deal.I don't want to jeopardize our friendship by playing these sex games with you and your husband.

Against her better judgment Bryn had agreed to have a threesome with Lysa ,who had been her best friend since the third grade,and her husband Steph.After a night of drinking,Bryn finally gave in only to receive a call from Steph for a solo session.Though she never told Lysa,she made it clear she would if Steph ever tried her like that again.
Bryn had sworn off sex after that happened and that was three years ago.Now all Bryn wanted to do was relieve this tension between her legs that plastic only seemed to be making worse.

I need body to body,she thought to herself.Bryn thought about her fantasy man Jay,he was everything she wanted in a man,yet the time never was right for them to get together.He understood everything about her though the never slept together.His smile stole her heart and his voice made her climax without even being touched.How can he have so much power and control and we have never been sexual?
Just as she is playing 21 questions there is a knock on the door.
Who is it?
Flowers In Bloom the voice said.
As I opened the door I was floored when I saw the large arrangement in front of me,it had to be two dozen of my favorite flowers,black magic roses.
Thank you I said as I tipped the delivery person.
I sat the vase on the counter and read the card.

Meet me tonight at 11:30pm in suite 1010 at the Rosen.
Jay

When we last spoke we weren't to happy by the end of the conversation.I had been invited for a girls night out and I really wanted to spend some time with him,but since I couldn't reach him,life goes on so I went to hang out with the girls.When I got there I found out he was preoccupied.Well aint that a bitch.So instead of enjoying my night,I sat fuming,why I don't know,but it was what it was.
Now I have an invite,and a decision on rather or not I should go to the Rosen in less than three hours.The waist down says go,the waist up says hey why not,but Im not sure if I am mentally prepared to do this.

At what point is your best not good enough?

2011-01-01T08:59:00.000-06:00

When you have made all the necessary changes in your life and relationship,and there is still no change,when do you walk away and throw in the towel?

For years I have spent my life pleasing others,giving them what they need from me and not receiving the same respect.I have watched people say one thing and do another.I've watched I love you stay a word waiting for it to become an action.I never understood how you could love someone who hurt you over and over.Or why people pursue those who don't want to be with them,only to have the one they want treat them like shyt.I mean when is enough enough?When do we say this is not for me and walk away?

I was always dreaming of what I could have in life and then I went for it.The biggest mistake was the other person didn't want the same things.I thought that having his dinner ready when he came home and making sure all his needs were met was the answer,I had been told by previous boo's that I would make future husband a lucky man one day.No one prepared me for the lesson in selfishness 101.
I am a giver who gives from the depths of my soul.And I ended up with one who knew I would give the best of me and not complain.And at times when I felt I was being taken for granted I expressed it and was told,"don't do nothing else for me" .That was the first indication that Im dealing with a boy not a man.

I lingered in that situation for seven years because I didnt want to be alone.It doesnt matter if you have a warm body in your bed if their soul is cold.Now I have my up in my mind that I can only live for me,he can't understand why Im leaving.
If I allow it then it's my choice,If I walk away,I am standing on my own!

Divalicious

Happy New Year!!!

2011-01-01T07:52:00.000-06:00

May 2011 find you in good health and spirits.A little more open minded,a little more understanding,and more willing to live out loud.
I will continue to speak my mind,more focus on the real,no attention to the bs.I am shedding my skin and I think Im going to like it!
Happy New Year Everyone!

Divalicious

Da Bleuz

2010-12-28T18:49:00.000-06:00

So you wrote your name in it while you was hitting it
Back stroking bust it wide open while you was spitting on it
I did you not worried bout me
I was yo ride or die
You never had to ask if,what,when or why,
I loved unselfishly
But you pressed mute on me
no love lost though
I'd do it all again yo
Hold you down,no matter the season
Me being forever your girl
Yet you scared to tell the world
how you really feel
I mean whats the big deal
I give you my heart
You share your soul
I just wanna hold
You till I can breath all that you are
Am I wishing on a star
Is it to much to ask
while Im laying in the past
of the love I wished I was given
Your prescence is whats missing
I hear what you saying but I cant feel
what you saying
cause you say enough to grasp my attention
but no love is ever mentioned
Im a sucker for your smile
Hell I would give you a child
to carry your name
be raised with no shame
cause the love wont change
even though the shit you do drives me insane
I just want you want me
as I want you
to feel this feeling
when I send my soul to you
Forever can be a happy place
If only you would meet me there
somewhere in the middle
instead of all these got dayum riddles
Xxxtac is my name
my head game is insane
thats what got you going
bet you ain kno it going in
but then again neither did I
Should I go
Should I stay
Wonder with thoughts so true
Wondering if its even worth it to keep
Phuckin with you
I gotta get out this blues Im in
It's got my whole mind wonderin.........

Farewell 2010

2010-12-28T09:54:00.000-06:00

Well another year has passed us,and another one is upon us.We've learned how to Dougie,dealt with the unemployment crisis,watch the miracle of the miners in Chile,saw the devastation of the BP spill.No one was prepared for the blizzard of 2010,the fall of Eddie Long,the death of Teena Marie,the departure of LeBron from his Cavs and his arrival to the Heat,the Magic trading Pietrus,Carter,and Lewis for Turk and Arenas.Tyler Perry taking a time out,but leaving us with a great movie: for Colored Girls,before he took a much needed rest.Lil Wayne went to Rikers,and the train wreck that is known as Nicki Minaj surfaced,Our children are still wearing their pants off their azz and calling it swag.many things shocked us,many were uh huh moments,We have our list for 2011 ready to entertain,many will live out loud while others will continue to do what they have done all their lives,allow others to live for them and participate when all the work is done..........

May you enter into 2011 with a clean heart and a renewed spirit.You can only be your best and that should be enough

Allowing him in

2010-12-28T09:30:00.000-06:00

He's knocking on my door of extacy ,hard and strong,she moist and tight,been held back for so long,I long for him,he lust for me.
Reaching the door he uses his key,my heart he has,his soul I keep,
trembling I take a step back,nervous of what will be,A real chance at love or will I forever be the giver of love and the recipient of hurt,Im glad I know my real worth
You asked me if I love you
Yes I confess,
You have a smile that lights a room,but it touches my soul
Your touch makes me forget the here and now
I sitll can not understand how you command so much power over me
Im helpless when you speak
I need to feel you
Make dreams with you be your ride or die get lost with you
Wake up in our reality and see how good we could be
together until time lasp into an eternity
This is who I am
Forever I will be
Imma let you in
as long as you dont leave me out
Slow down the pace,no need to bang on the walls
It belongs to you,you signed your name when I you made this smile grow on my face...

Divalicious

2010-12-16T19:37:00.000-06:00

Love is like a rollercoaster
It takes you on many leaps and bounds
twist and turns
It will make you scream with joy
and at the same time it will make you cry as your heart drops to the pit of your stomach

Love is not a bad thing when your in it together
However when your in love by yourself it never works out quite right
Love is not to be played with either cause if someone else holds your heart,everyone else will get lost
in translation because you will never give them what they need from you.

Love can make you an inmate
You eat breathe and sleep it
For years I always wondered what if or how will I know
No one has ever made a mark the way love has
When I compare notes,no one compares to my love
SO I will cherish my love forever and hold it close to my heart
Not everyone knows real love

I am glad to be one of the few to have experienced it and I look forward to receive it again.

Is it ever a right time to say goodbye?........

2010-12-13T07:20:00.000-06:00

The old saying "All good things must come to an end" rings true in a situation you never should have been in.Granted going in you knew it was going to be a doosey,but you played with it and went in anyway.Your heart never belonged there, but you made it stay there with you so you could fulfill your own selfish needs.As time went on,you proceeded to feel that "um this ain really what I want."But you have invested so much time and energy into it seems foolish to walk away from it now.You have a million and one reason why your unhappy,but only one as to why you cant leave.It's amazing how we will settle for the wrong in a relationship as to being by yourself.The number one excuse is the kids.People either break up or stay together because of the kids.In the end if the relationship is dead,then you are only hurting the kids by continuing to stay in the situation.I am learning late in life that men can not save us from our families or ourselves.I never prayed for God to send me a man,I just asked was he the man.One morning you will wake up and look at them and ask yourself,what am I doing here!But then your feet become cement and for some reason you can't move.Just know the first step is the hardest,but the ones following slowly become easier to take.

Never look at the bad situations as time wasted,think of it as valuable classroom time where you learned what not to do in the future.Know that if you learn from it,then you can grow from it .I think when you focus so much on your have nots,you miss out on the have's.

Divalicious

2010-12-11T08:29:00.002-06:00

"May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy."

"Life is short, so forgive quickly, Believe slowly, Love truly, Laugh
uncontrollably. Never regret anything that makes you happy, and have a
wonderful journey!!!"

Friends

2010-12-10T12:27:00.000-06:00

They say birds of a feather flock together,I have grown not to believe that.I have friends that are the complete opposite of me however we work well together.I'm still trying to figure out if you are a strong independent person,why do you tend to have needy people around you?I mean are you working on a top secret mission to transform them into a stronger person?
I try not to complain,however I end up being the ear for all the other folks that know me to complain too,funny thing is when they are doing well you dont hear from them. But the minute one hair is out of place,your phone blows up 24/7.I don't understand the "friends" that feel the need to one up you either,I mean we are all adults and if you are living a blessed life,then I am more than happy for you.Why can't you be happy for me as I am for you?
If you find out some disturbing new about your friends mate,Im not saying break your neck to lower the boom,but at least find a tactful way to let them know whats going on.So many friendships end because of jealousy.
We must be leery of those who are anxious to become a part of your circle,those who ask a million and one question about your relationship and are more concern about your relationship then the friendship.Some of us are holding on to friendship based on the longevity of the friendship and not the basis of what is going on.

Like most no one wants to be alone,however you have to pick and chose the people that are close to you like you buy a car or a house,its a life changing decision that should not be taken lightly.Not everyone is your friend,some of these people are acquaintances and associates,treat them as such and save yourself a whole lot of grief!

Does Size Really matter?

2010-12-10T10:21:00.000-06:00

When I meet a man for the first time the first thing I notice is his hair and his face.Clothes are material so unless he trying to act like he a baller,or he driving a 2011Mercedes and he looking like he just left the shelter,then we can work out the gear.Ive dated men with big hands and big feet and well thats all they had.Sometimes I've run into one or two where BIG things come in small packages.On a wear occasion Ive had a friend who's shoe size fit his dick size,but Ive learned its not what you got,its how you use it,I used to have a sex friend and it was strange cause he had all that pipe and didnt know how to operate it properly.I am not a selfish person,but If Im the student,I ain teaching your azz nothing.I got bored with that situation real quick,I think because his public(I kno how to spell it)separated into its own lil island turned me off as well.I have always been amused at a man who talks about what your gonna get,but ends up looking stuck on stupid when you have him sucking his thumb looking like a fetus in a ultrasound photo.the quiet man is the one you need to look out for,of he will drop some dick on ya and in ya and you wont know what to do with yourself cause you so did not expect that from whats his name,I mean it didnt look that big but he packing a punch down there.

My aunt told me once she rather be tickled to death than choked to death,I didn't quiet know what that meant,then as I went in I realized,I like to laugh but that aint no laughing matter.I dont want him to mess up a perfect fit,however I dont want to hurt his feelings and ask is he in there yet............You like what you like,you need what you need,but we have to stop lying to them and ourselves,"Is it good?" um depending on the kinda brother you dealing with will give the answer.If he crazy Yes its the best I ever had,no need over getting choked to death,if he a wuss,laugh like you have lost your mind while you point to the door and kick his azz out.

Im Juz sayin
Divalicious

Usher - Superstar (Lyrics)

2010-12-10T09:55:00.000-06:00

Go Stand in da Corna!

2010-12-10T09:45:00.000-06:00

It's been a minute since I posted the top 10 people who need to go stand in the Corna,well here it is!

10.Sherri Shepard: Girl I know Prince was,has been,still is alot of women's fantasy,but I know you ain tell that man you've always dreamed of sleeping with him...........on live TV Sherri really?

9. Superhead: If he hit you once y you go back?I mean really,are you using them azz whuppings to stay relevant?

8. Toni Braxton: When will you learn Uncle Sam don't play bout his money.You better go back to Vegas and see what you can come up with!

7. Kanye West: Boy go to therapy get some help and then come back cause these hour long videos and sleeping with monsters......really?

6.Fab from Milli Vanilli: Bruh we ain beleive yo azz then and dammit I don't believe you NOW!!

5.Diddy This bullshyt just coming out?I thought it was the "LAST" train to Paris.You been riding that sum ma bish for almost a year now!!

4.Wesley Snipes: If yo tank head azz would have just went in and fought for your appeal behind bars you would be out know with time served,Nikka you ain realized you black yet?!?!?!

3.The Granmammie who want Lil Wayne to submit to a DNA test:Really? The child momma wants no parts of this and I dont blame her,I wouldnt want no one to know I slept with a troll eitha!

2.Keri Hilson : Ok you named your album: No Boys Allowed,now you give a concert and tell em you getting dicked down tonight......crickets......who you tryna convince me or you?

1. Keith Washington: You ain respond to ya ex wife putting you on blast in her book saying you got that lil package called HIV,yet you hit the ground running telling the world our Queen of Soul has cancer......REALLY? I hope the other folks that thought you were their friend know you aint a secret keeper.You know dayum well black folks dont put that kinda shyt out on the radio!

H-Town - They Like it Slow

2010-12-10T09:08:00.000-06:00

That's all?!?!?!

2010-12-10T08:39:00.000-06:00

Ladies don't you hate when you meet a guy,you all start off as friends cause he got a girl,you got a man,or its never been the right time to pursue anything on a deeper level and when you finally hook up his shyt go south?!

I remember this guy,we used to flirt and what have you and one night we finally gave into the chemistry.Well his soldier failed to salute his superior officer cause it was limp as a noodle!um you need to go in the bathroom and talk to ya man.I mean it is only so much rubbing and finger poling I can take before I am physically turned off!
"This has never happened before".Well if you dont hurry up,it will never happen again with me anyway!He gave him a pep talk and finally action..........Is this nikka breathing fast?Wait a minute is he gripping?.......Why is sweat dripping on my forehead?...This mutha sucka done..............I know he ain tryin to hold me..........Um scuse me you done? Naw I can go all night.Well if your sequel anything like the prequel Im straight!Lemme go wash my azz and get gone,whats wrong Boo? Uh uh we are not on Boo status with that weak azz water you just poured.I mean I get it you was excited but dayum That's All?!?!?!?

I'm Juz Sayin
Divalicious

Pull Yo dayum Pant's Up!!

2010-12-10T08:25:00.000-06:00

One of my biggest pet peeves is seeing people with their pants hanging off they azz!I say people cause now errybody doin it!The po po caught you cause you can't run with your pants round your ankle dummy!And while Im on it when was dirty drawers part of the swag game?I mean really if I see you erryday,and you got the same color drawers on........And before you say I got 5 of the same colored drawers,men drawers come 2 in a pack so um try again.and why you wearing all them clothes anyway?How you got a belt on and your pants hanging off ya azz?The only way I will accept a man with pants hanging off his azz is if he got stacks of hundred dollar bills in his pockets and they making em fall down,and hale by the time Im done he gone still need to pull em up cause his pockets gonna be empty!
Now don't get me wrong I ain asking you to wear no dick print pants but hale I am not an azz woman,I dont wanna see all that!

Im Juz Sayin
Divalicious

Sat Down Sumwhere!

2010-12-10T08:11:00.000-06:00

Ok now ya'll know Im bout as peaceful as Ghandi,but when you mess with my family all that goes out the window!I've had writers block for a few weeks,been in a funk for months and then I see my cousin Marian's post.

A lil girl hit my lil cousin in the head with a belt.Well in true Thomas fashion,when she got off the bus,She got her azz whupped!Now in my day fair is fair,you hit me,Imma hit yo azz back,tomorrow we cool but you learned a lesson,dont do that shyt no more.When did the rules change?How you start some shyt then go get your momma?What she gone do but get the same thing you got?You think you gonna be Billy Bad Azz and do the derty and nothing will happen?Y the momma popped a shyt ball in her mouth before she got there to pop shyt but Cuz showed up and she popped an Orbitz cause she knew she was facing the same fate her daughter had the day before!

Don't get me wrong I am all for protecting the kids,however,I don't get into bullshyt,you asked for that azz whuppin,cut your losses charge it to the game and leave people da hale alone!That same belt she hit Syd with,her momma should whupped her azz with,I'm Juz Sayin!!

That is all for Now

Divalicious

Get Yo Shyt Together!

2010-11-19T11:55:00.000-06:00

Often times you have a friend or two who always have advice for you but they shyt worse than yours.I mean how you go tell me to get rid of my man but you messing with someone elses man.How can you say someone has bad kids when your kids have no home training.Im amazed at how often I hear I wouldnt take that,but behind closed doors you taking it raw with no grease.If you put all the time and energy you are using to get me right to get your shyt together, you will get further than you are in life.I deal with bullshyt cause I want to not cause I have too.When Im done I will walk away and you will be still trapped in a relatioship by yourself with someone else's man.

Everyone is gearing up for the big weekend and the sad part is the children and the house will go lacking.That dude is about to be sold a fantasy this weekend cause you sporting a 18 inch #1 ,mixed with red,the lashes are a lil off cause it ain for errybody.them shoes is hawt but you borrowed them from ya home girl.That outfit fresh as hale but you taking it back to Ross Sunday.You hopping the baller you let hit come through and break bread like he said cause you know the kids you ain have this weekend gots to get fed.............

Divalicious

Gone Already

2010-11-19T08:44:00.000-06:00

So as I sit and work through this thing called life,I decided to return to writing and I mean really write.I express myself better that way.Anyone who knows me knows music is my drug of choice.So Im listening to all the kick rock songs as well as the give me what Im missing songs and then I listen to one of my favorites right now,Gone Already.There are so many reasons to walk away,sometimes you just need a little help...........

Enclosed os the lyrics and video.The words are perfect for those Relationships that have turned into Friendships

If you ever loved someone who never took the time to know you. Nothing that you say ever gets through. Listens everyday don’t hear you. You’re just going through the motions. Every day is so monotonous. Baby I’m just being honest. It was over before we started. I was gone…

[Chorus]
Gone already. Gone already. I just didn’t know you’re ready. But I already been gone, I already been gone.
Gone already. Gone already. Nothing else you can tell me. Cause I already been gone. I already been gone.

I was feeling like a dead man walking. Nothing but the pain you’re causing. Hoping that things would change, but you never gave me that option. There’s so many things you don’t do to make me over look the wrong. This is not the way that love should be. I guess you’re not the man for me…

[Chorus]
Gone already. Gone already. I just didn’t know you’re ready. But I already been gone, I already been gone.
Gone already. Gone already. Nothing else you can tell me. Cause I already been gone. I already been gone.

Packed my bags, made up my mind, broke that lease and left the keys behind. Hoping I could make it disappear. I could be a million miles from here. Obligation made me stay, as long as I did it that’s my mistake. When I know that I’m already gone…

[Chorus]
Gone already. Gone already. I just didn’t know you’re ready. But I already been gone, I already been gone.
Gone already. Gone already. Nothing else you can tell me. Cause I already been gone. I already been gone.

If you every loved someone who never took the time to know you…
Going through the motions, everyday is so monotonous…
Already been gone…

Trey Songz - Made To Be Together From New Album (Official HD) (Download ...

2010-11-18T21:52:00.000-06:00

Trey Songz - Love Faces From A New Album - Passion Pain & Pleasure

2010-11-18T21:51:00.000-06:00

Trey Songz - "Can't Be Friends" [Official Video]

2010-11-18T21:50:00.000-06:00

I want My Stuff Back

2010-11-18T21:38:00.000-06:00

I recently went to see the movie For Colored girls.Now I love me some Tyler Perry ,however I can't do emotional movies cause it reminds me how emotional my life is.Well there was a part in the movie where Loretta Devine recited the poem,I want my stuff back,not to be out done some of us wrote our own letter to get our stuff back,here's mine,feel free to add yours........

For all the years that I have sat in silence lingering on your every word,being your ride or die,taking one for the team when the team wasn't even playing the game.accepting things for what they were and praying as time went on it would get better.You made promises you never intended to keep,but because I allowed myself to give me you unconditional,I accepted what you gave and I made do.My mother passed on to me what her grandma passed to her,"A man aint gon take off a woman,what a woman will take from a man".I thought I was different,you did just enough to keep me interested in the game.I cooked full course meals on a daily basis,made everyday feel like Sunday dinner.Prepared your plate and served you like the King you were suppose to be.All my work and effort never payed off,You broke me down till I lost myself in you.I was so intent on making you happy that I forgot what I needed to make me happy.I learned the game to impress you,but I found out that after all these years,you are still keeping score.I tried to be your fantasy and all I got was nightmare.I have a closet full of stilettos,everyday I will wear a pair so that I can stand tall among giants and look down from which I came,never to allow anyone to take me back there again.I am worth more to myself than to allow you to keep me from my destination.I wanted to travel there with you,but you are content with the corner in which you reside.I am a free spirit always seeking to better my self,so Imma need you to GIVE ME MY STUFF BACK cause contentment is not the bases of who I am or who I claim to be!!!

This is for inspiration that was inspired by some ladies I know who also want their stuff back.

Divalicious

When your relationship turns into a friendship

2010-11-18T20:58:00.000-06:00

I am a romantic at heart,I love the touch and the love of a man,my man.I give just as much if not more than he because I want him to feel that I cherish what he is giving me.Well One morning after I decided that I no longer wanted to deal with my illness,reality hit me.For four years I have been sleeping in the same bed with a friend.He sleeps at one end of the bed and I at the other.We sleep under separate covers and we have this imaginary line where we don't mind booting the other back to their perspective side.I sat there staring at him as he slept trying to figure out what I did to make my lover only want to be my friend.I felt cheated because although he could never replace the love of my life.I made him feel like the only man that mattered.I went from being his world to being his roommate.We remain silent at all times.From time to time we share a laugh,and I silently pray it over,but so much is unsaid and its not from a lack of trying.At what point do you walk away and why would you stay?

divalicious

I'm Baaaaaaack

2010-11-18T20:28:00.000-06:00

What's up friends fans and lurkers,it's been awhile since I've had something to say and trust me I have plenty!I've decided to make this more of a question and answer as well as my point of view,I promise to not go away to long again.I have alot to say and I want to hear your thoughts too so without further ado...................

Congrats to the beautiful Couples that took the plunge

2010-08-01T13:00:00.001-05:00

Love was in the air this weekend as Alicia Keys and Swiss Beatx,Tiny and T.I, made it official.Chelsea Clinton got a ring on it too.

Tiny and T.I.

the Bridesmaids Monica,Khandi,Rasheeda,And Toya along with Diamond

Oh Tiny....Imma let this one slide,Congrats girl!

The Queen Bee Sets the Record Straight

2010-07-20T16:31:00.000-05:00

Lil Kim reveals her thoughts about Nicki Minaj,Drake,Diddy,Jay Z, and the people that shyted on her.All I can say is tell em how you really feel Kimmy!

BV: So what's going on with you and Nicki Minaj?

LK: "Well, here's the situation. At the end of the day, when I came into the industry, I had to ... let me take that back. I didn't have to pay homage [to female rappers], but I did, I chose to. Because I knew that would be better for my career, but not only that, I love those girls! I did pattern myself after Salt-N-Pepa and all these other girls that were in the industry, Da Brat, and Lady of Rage. I would've look like a fool coming in saying little things and subliminal raps, because how could I ever disrespect these women who have been in the industry and paved the way for me?

"See that's the problem, why don't we just be real here and go back to a year and a half ago when she was just busting shots out of every place when she said in one of her interviews, 'Oh, you know I'm going to sit by the pool and have the females in the game who's been here for 10 years feeding me grapes, being that they don't have nothing else to do right now.' Oh yeah, bitch. I remember that! I remember that, I'm not going to forget it! Because at the end of the day, how dare you disrespect me or any other female that's been in this industry for so long. She's the same dag on age as us. Stop it! You coming in the game at 30 years old, don't even freakin' go there, don't go there."

BV: When we found out that Drake said that she's the best rap chick in the game, she's the only rap chick in the game.

LK: "See that's another problem that I have, I'm going to briefly explain this, but here's another thing that the world doesn't know ... I have a really great relationship with the people who run her camp [Cash Money Records], Slim andBaby. My relationship is with Slim, I've been cool with him for four or five years now. This whole thing came about when she was first trying to come up and everything. I honestly didn't like it. It was so obvious that she wanted to be like me. It was so obvious that she wanted to pattern herself after me. She likes me, but she just doesn't know how to show me love. So I looked at it like, they know how to do it, cause Slim always got the industry, me and him got the same thing. I got a lot of love for Slim. So his thing was, we should all do something together and that's how I saw it. I was like, 'Hey it would be great for hip-hop to see me and a female rocking together.'

"I wasn't blown away by her when she first came out and even now I'm not blown away. But I thought that she had a rhyme style that would've flowed with mine that I liked. And I said I could kind of see myself rapping with her. So I was like ok, let me make some friends here. I threw up the white flag. So I'm over here and Baby asked Slim to ask me to do a record for his album. I did the record. They put Nicki Minaj on the record, No problem. I said let's do it. Baby was like, 'Yo, this record is crazy' when I did my verse he loved it. He was like, 'I don't just like it, I love it.'

"When they put the record out, I guess the response that they got for her wasn't what they wanted because everybody was saying that I smashed the record. So [Baby] pulled the record back. They f---ing sh---ed on me!? Ok, now it's time, now it's war, because I'm tired. I'm tired of people taking advantage of me and being quiet and people don't know what's going on."

BV: Now what about you and Jay-Z?

LK: "I love Jay-Z. But here's the thing, he had a conversation with me before about bringing me on Roc-A-Fella. And it didn't happen. But, hey, maybe this is the right timing. I don't always agree with everything Jay-Z does, and he doesn't always agree with everything that I do. But we've been friends since 15 years old, so I look at it like there's no escaping him. Same thing with Puffy [Diddy]. Puffy and I are brother and sister. And we're going to fight, but I can't escape from Puffy. It's almost like, I'm stuck with the boy. We're brother and sister and we both don't always do the right thing. As a matter of fact, most of the time he doesn't do the right thing. It's a love-hate thing I guess. I'm just so tired of doing so much for him and he doesn't do anything for me. It's time for me to start giving back to Kimmy."

Lilith Fair

2010-07-18T18:56:00.000-05:00

Lilith Fair was on and poppin last night in Tinley Park IL.

Nancy Wilson

Mary J was feeling it.

Sarah McLachlan

I Love these dudes

2010-07-18T18:49:00.000-05:00

I am a long time fan of Bell Biv DeVoe,and New Edition,I am so going to catch them in concert at least once in my lifetime!Here are some photo's from their recent at BB Kings on New York

(L-R) Ronnie DeVoe, Ricky Bell and Michael Bivins of the group "Bell Biv DeVoe" perform at B.B. King Blues Club & Grill on July 16, 2010 in New York City.

Ricky and Mike

Roxanne Shante performed as well

SMDH at this mess

2010-07-17T08:05:00.000-05:00

Instead of taking a video of this mess,get him some dayum help!!They tried to throw Pleasure P under the bus,now look at this mess!!

Would you Dare?!?!?

2010-07-16T18:36:00.000-05:00

Hey are you an adventurer?Don't believe in ghost or haunted houses? I will list 10 of the scariest places in Florida.If you dare to visit,Let me know what happened,lol

1. Alachua: Newnansville Cemetery: On certain nights ghostly figures can be seen walking around.

2.Amelia Island: Old Jail: On a rare occasion,ghost with a gaping hole with blood pouring out will appear

3.Anna Maria Island: Bali Hai: Every year around August a shadowy figure walks the beach of the Bali Hai Hotel.

4.Apalachicola: Gibson Inn HWY 98: The phone rings on rooms that are not occupied,and the switchboard mysterious lights up.

5.Apopka: Orange Blossom Trail(right by the fruit stand near the Walmart)A native American in lion cloth crosses the highway,looks at you then disappears.

6.Apopka: The Captain and the Cowboy Restaurant:Loud bangs come from the attic and when your alone,you can feel someone brush up against you.

7.Arcadia: Old Blue House in the neighborhood:A family was killed there in the 1800s and the house was burned down shortly after.A new house was built on top of their graves in the 1900's.Spirits are said to still be living in the house.

8.Astor: Campsite Gobbler Rd: Glowing male figure often seen walking down the road around 9:30-11:00pm

9.Aurburndale: The Bowling Alley: It's reportedly cursed,it was built on swampland,some say no one can mange the bulding because it is haunted

10.Aurburndale: the Good Sheppard Hospice: there are about 10 beds there and about 2 or 3 people die there a week.

Check back tomorrow for the B's............

Really Terius?!?!?

2010-07-16T18:02:00.000-05:00

Ok by now everyone knows that The Dream and his bride of less than a year Christina Millian are dunzzo,First his album tanked,then the photo's surfaced,now he writes an open letter to apologize to Christina for the demise of their marriage.I won't post it but here's the break down,He says no one caused the break up,he feels bad,blah blah,he almost killed himself,blah,blah,and he had to learn he was not Superman,blah blah.

Ok here it is,He just trying to save face and his career.The Dream may have married Christina so that their child wouldn't be born out of wedlock.He divorced Nivea when she was fighting to stay married.Then he marries Christina,the baby is born and he says baby Violet has a car,but she can't drive,and her momma can't drive the car either.He was asked if he helped with the baby,he said no,that's what the help is for.He sounds like a reject!Chrissy be glad you didn't invest more time,Focus on your daughter and let Teddy Ruxpin go fly somewhere!This dude is on some real bs!!

Divalicious

Weezy F Baby Please pay ur Uncle his money!

2010-07-16T17:51:00.000-05:00

How do you walk around worth millions,you got millions on ya teeth,your neck,your wrist,you walking round being the sperminator to everything that let you hit raw,you bragging bout being the best at what you do,yet you owe the State of Florida 1.13 million!Now these artist need to learn that when it comes to doing what's right,your taxes should be numero uno! Uncle Sam gone get his one way or another!!

Baby Momma's Gon Wild!

2010-07-16T15:08:00.002-05:00

First it was two pregnant girls fighting one girl,next thing you know the pimp and all his O's done got in on it...SMH 5x,we gotta do better!!

Shout Outs!

2010-07-16T11:40:00.000-05:00

I wanna send a shout out to a few people who keep me lifted and hold me down especially when I need them the most.We have to learn to let go of things that keep us from getting to where it is we're going.In today's world Loyalty is one of the missing elements in what a true friend is.Those of you who fight with me and stand alongside me,are an example of what true friendship and real partna's are about!

So to my Sistars over at AIME,Paula B,Tameka H,Mr.Swagtastic,Tameka J,Zola Media,Kim H,Dennis W, and Mr. Blaqness,you are appreciated!!

Divallicious

Karma's a B***H

2010-07-16T08:32:00.000-05:00

Well look who is reportedly getting it in.After Kim K and the Bush man broke up from Kim's alleged affair with Kanye West, Reggie and Amber Rose hooked up.Bet they didn't see that coming.

You need a time out!!

2010-07-16T08:15:00.000-05:00

It's been awhile I know but here are the top 10 people who need a time out this week!

10. Cindy Anthony: She got on the stand under oath and said,"I believe Caley is still alive". This from the woman who orchestrated a live broadcast of the child's funeral!Now if anyone should get a check for being crazy as hell,she should get it,I'm juz sayin!

9. Jada Pinkett Smith and Angelina Jolie:It's one thing to allow your children to express themselves,but anyone under 16 will not be shaving their heads in my house unless their a boy! And if I had a girl,she's going to look like one and act like one!

8. Rappers getting arrested: Some of you need to learn that once you make it,leave that foolishness behind!Who you trying to convince?I mean if I had an opportunity to make millions doing what I love,guess what,I don't care who get made,I'm going on the straight and narrow.True talent will prevail so getting arrested for doing stuff you would do in your old life is so not the bness!!

7.The pregnant con artist and her victim: Shame on the pregnant woman who scammed the lady out of 5000.And shame on the victim for giving that kind of money to someone you don't know.The pregnant woman claimed they won the lottery,but because they were illegal,they couldn't cash the ticket.But for 5000.00 they would give her 30,000.00 in return.When she asked for the money back,they gave her a bag with newspaper and rocks!

6.Tylenol: They have made a bad batch or something,now the only meds that take the edge off other than an IV will be in short supply until 2011,REALLY?!?!?!

5.Judge Erickson: Is on a power trip,he is really letting that gavel go to his head.He locking folks up for being late,traffic tickets,and everything else.and what's crazy is he's not giving them their day in court,he's just sentencing them.

4.The Candidate's running for Governor of Florida and the Senate: Instead of spending all that money telling us why your opponent shouldn't be in office,why not use that money to create jobs as well as opportunity the state could benefit form?I mean if you put your money where your mouth is and show me better than tell me,I would be more inclined to vote for you.Talk is cheap,it takes cash money to buy land!

3.Omar Curry:Former Marion County teacher already in trouble for allegedly having sex with two of his students is now being accused of having a child with former student who was 17. This dude would call the girls out of class to have sex with them,Whut da Hale!!! I don't care how old these kids look or act,they are still kids!If you like em that age then you need to seek help ASAP.This is getting really old!!

2.The Mayor of Oviedo: Okay you turned in your two week notice citing the need to take care of your sick husband,then less than a week letter you changed your mind.Hmm seems husband had an overnight cure or he may have been well all the time. He probably found out on the news like everyone else and lit her a new one.

1.Kimberly Boone: Is on trial for allegedly trying to kill her husband.Aww Kimmy,you can't shot him and then call 911 and try to convince him you didn't do it!He saying you shot him and you saying "No I didn't sweetheart".Um yeah ya did,Word of advice,if you want out,just leave,no need to resort to violence!

Divalicious

What the What!!

2010-07-16T07:25:00.001-05:00

Too Short was arrested the other night for trying to fight three bouncers......................Short Dawg sat down somewhere!!!I'm beginning to think that these celebs are starting to do some of the stupid stuff they do just to stay relevant!Too Short came out when I was about 14 or 15 and I'm now 36 so I'm sure he bout to tear 50 a new one and he round here showing out like that? He will definitely be on the top ten today!

RIP Vonetta McGee

2010-07-16T06:42:00.002-05:00

Vonetta McGee: Leading Lady of Blaxploitation Era Dead At 65

Vonetta McGee, an actress who scaled the ranks of Black Hollywood during blaxploitation film era of the 1970s, passed away after experiencing cardiac arrest and being on life support for two days. She was 65, though some have her year of birth listed as 1940.

McGee appeared opposite Fred Williamson in the black action movie 'Hammer' in 1972, and had starring roles in the crime-drama 'Melinda' and the popular horror film 'Blacula.'

Los Angeles Times movie reviewer once considered McGee "one of the busiest and most beautiful black actresses."

The San Francisco native also appeared with Richard Roundtree in 'Shaft in Africa' (1973), and co-starred with her lover, Max Julien, in 'Thomasine & Bushrod' (1974).McGee also appeared with Clint Eastwood in the 1975 action-thriller 'The Eiger Sanction,' which was considered a coup for a black actress during that period.

"I was pleased to see her get a role with Clint Eastwood," Williamson told the Los Angeles Times. "Not many black actors had that opportunity to be in a movie where color doesn't matter."

"Vonetta McGee was like a lot of actors and actresses at that time, like myself, Jim Brown, Richard Roundtree, Billy Dee Williams and Pam Grier, in that we had more talent than we were allowed to show because everything was perceived as a black project. Once they categorize you, your marketability becomes limited," he added.

Known to be outspoken herself, McGee didn't care too much for the "blaxploitation" label that was attached to many of the films of her heyday. The label, she said, was used ""like racism, so you don't have to think of the individual elements, just the whole. If you study propaganda, you understand how this works."

On a segment of 'Soul Train' in 1974, McGee joked that she had to go through a "lot of pain" to get her acting career started. In actuality, she attended San Francisco State college when she got involved with a local acting group. McGee launched her film career in 1968 in Italy, where she debuted in the spaghetti western 'The Great Silence' and played the title role in the comedy 'Faustina.'

While starring in several episodes of the 1980s drama series 'Cagney & Lacey,' alongside Carl Lumbly, McGee fell in love with the dashing actor.

"I still remember the first day she came on the set -- it was August 21,1984 -- and we were scheduled to do a bedroom scene," Lumbly reflected in a 1989 Ebony magazine profile on celebrity couples. "Later, when we left the set I realized we were holding hands ... We married two years later."

The couple had a son, Brandon, in 1988.

According to family spokeswoman Kelley Nayo, McGee had been diagnosed with Hodgkin's lymphoma at age 17, but her July 9 death was not related to the disease.

In addition to her husband and son, she is survived by her mother, Alma McGee; three brothers, Donald, Richard and Ronald McGee; and a sister, Alma McGee.

"She was a brilliant actor, with a distinctive style and grace," Pam Grier told BV Newswire upon hearing the death of McGee's death. "I hope everyone revisits her films and enjoy. I wish peace and love to Carl, her husband her son and and her family."

New Monica

2010-07-15T19:37:00.000-05:00

New Video for Love All Over Me.I must say it was hot,I can't wait till July 23 to see which one she chose!

What the What!!

2010-07-15T16:47:00.001-05:00

Ok I'm sure by know you all see I'm trying to keep it a little on the lighter side by posting celebs,comedy and music video's,but don't get it twisted,I am still gonna call it like I see it and there are a few stories today that are begging me to get in it!

First up Gary Coleman's ex- wife!!The man fell down the stairs and all she could say was "Gary, you bleeding all over the place lay down". Then she turns around and hits the couch of anyone who will have her to state they had reconciled and were planing on remarrying,What da what?!?!?Now she wants to be in charge of his estate........Um Gary was broke,what could she possibly be trying to control?I guess it does take different strokes to rule the world.......

Why is it when people die,everybody want's a handout?We all know Mike's love for the kids,now a year after his death,his alleged son want's to join in on the wrongful death suit. Prince Michael Malachi Jet Jackson is the alleged 25 year old son of the King of Pop.I don't know who I want to slap first him,of Daddy Joe for just being in the mix!Everyone has had their own speculations on MJ's sexuality,at the end of the day,it was his business.Now they are trying to make Mike into a Cassonova who loved them and left them with little MJ spawns all over the world,REALLY?!?!?

Sneak Peek

2010-07-15T16:35:00.001-05:00

Here's a sneak peek and some photo's from R&B singer Monica's upcoming video, Love All Over Me.The video features Rapper Manio and NBA Baller Shannon Brown.

The singer is rumored to be dating Manio,I wonder who she will pick? Stay tuned!

Mo'Nique Stand-Up

2010-07-15T10:41:00.000-05:00

Stand Up - Reginald D Hunter - The Comedy All Stars Cabaret (April 2010)

2010-07-15T10:34:00.000-05:00

On the Red Carpet at the ESPY'S

2010-07-15T08:49:00.000-05:00

The 18th Annual Espy Awards took place recently and here's a look at some of the attendees.

Takeo Spikes

Vince Young made an appearance.

Mo,Terrell,and Kita came through.

Stuart Scott no doubt congratulating Chris Bosh on his new deal with the Miami Heat.

Jhari Evans

NBA Legend Dr. J

I see you Keyshawn Johnson

2010 Cedric The Entertainer / 1 of 3 / Lil Wayne, TI, Michael Jackson, Shaq

2010-07-14T16:02:00.000-05:00

Congrats KeKe Palmer

2010-07-14T15:52:00.000-05:00

Congrats are in order for Miss.KeKe Palmer for graduating from High School a year early!The multi-talented young star who is turning 17 next month,has accomplished a feat most young people in her position pass up in order to stay relevant in showbiz.The young scholar plans to attend HBCU Howard University in the near future. Kudos to her and her parents for a job well done!!

DJ Khaled "All I Do Is Win" -- Official REMIX video (ft. T-Pain, Nicki M...

2010-07-13T18:29:00.000-05:00

New Music Tuesday!!!

2010-07-13T16:52:00.000-05:00

Lyfe Jennings new smash:Statistics

and of my favorite song right now: There Goes my Baby by Usher

It's a wrap!

2010-07-13T07:19:00.001-05:00

Well it didn't take long for this union to bite the dust.Christina Milian just can't catch a break.She is the poster child of what a cheater looks for.Baby Violet is not even six months old and daddy "The Dream" is running wild with another woman.I knew something was wrong when he said it wasn't his job to help with the baby,that's what the staff is for.Really dude? I just hope the two of them can get along for the sake of their child,Violet didn't pick who she was born to,yet they need to focus on how they raise their little girl!

Mel Gibson has lost his.........

2010-07-13T07:01:00.001-05:00

By know you all have heard Mad Max has gone beyond Thunderdome! People;e are losing their minds at the allegations of racism and the allegations of abuse.Once again it's a classic case of how we embrace these celebrities as though they do no wrong and then the first sight of them being human,you all but loose your mind! Mel lost is when he was convicted of that drunk driving case.He came back and redeemed himself,then he showed out again.Now I hear people throwing away their Mel Gibson movies and getting their panties in a bunch.Ask yourself,what makes Mel any different from anyone else you know?Doesn't matter how much money you have,you are still human,doesn't matter how good of an actor you are,you can only hide your true colors for so long!Instead of sinning and idolizing these "false Gods",pray that they get it together.I bet Mel's ex wife is glad it ended when it did and she no longer has to deal with this madness,cause please believe this is not new.It just spiraled out of control.I just want to know what made the girlfriend tape all this stuff,and why she releasing a tape a day? I'm Juz Sayin!!

Divalicious

Congrats on the Wedding,but um how long should it take to put a ring on it?

2010-07-13T06:51:00.001-05:00

Well this past weekend quiet a few celebrities have gotten hitched.Most noted was Martin Lawrence and his longtime love Shamicka Gibbs and Carmelo Anthony finally wed his lady love LaLa Vasquez. Both couples have years and kids invested into the relationship,so the question is how long should one wait to marry or should they marry at all after they have children?I think we have to do whatever works for us,however when your in the public eye,people tend to want you to do things on their time rather than your own.There are not many old fashion people these days.Before you marry then have children.Then you got pregnant,had a shotgun wedding before the baby was born.Now you have the children,and when the kids go of to college,you make it official.What's funny about this (not really) is when our children follow our path we become angry with them as though we set a better standard.We have to raise the bar.If we don't want our children to smoke,Then we shouldn't smoke,Not every situation can be changed,yet it is our responsibility to set a standard and stick to it.
LaLa played it smart in a sense,she had the one baby and waited.If he didn't put a ring on it,then she wouldn't have had to worry about a house full of kids.Shamicka was the one who stuck by Martin when he had his meltdown.I guess after what he went through with his first wife,he wasn't trying to repeat it,but eventually love prevailed and all is well in their world! Once again Congrats to the happy couple's and I pray that they have a blessed union.

Please note that things posted on this blog are my opinions,They are not in anyway said to be mean spirited,I', juz sayin!

Miami aint the only place feeling the HEAT

2010-07-09T16:10:00.000-05:00

By now everyone on the planet knows that Miami Heat just snatched up LeBron James.Although I'm not sure who's the bigger baby out of Bron Bron and Kobe,I have to uncrown Lebron for being unsportsmanlike and hand that crown over to Dan Gibson.That dude went in on Lebron as if he caught him cooking naked in his kitchen.He went on about how Cleveland made Lebron and how he disrespected them by leaving.You created that monster and like all monster who get to big for their cages,they break out and become unruly! Although I am not a fan,I am all for a person doing what is needed to grow.I understand your golden goose has flown the coup and your angry,however you are setting a poor example by your actions.Snatching jersey's off the shelves,burning the jersey's in the streets and just showing your behinds.Shame on you Cleveland.All I know when the Heat and the Cavs play,thats must see t.v.

Below is the letter

Dear Cleveland, All Of Northeast Ohio and Cleveland Cavaliers Supporters Wherever You May Be Tonight.

As you now know, our former hero, who grew up in the very region that he deserted this evening, is no longer a Cleveland Cavalier.

This was announced with a several day, narcissistic, self-promotional build-up culminating with a national TV special of his “decision” unlike anything ever “witnessed” in the history of sports and probably the history of entertainment.

Clearly, this is bitterly disappointing to all of us.

The good news is that the ownership team and the rest of the hard-working, loyal, and driven staff over here at your hometown Cavaliers have not betrayed you nor NEVER will betray you.

There is so much more to tell you about the events of the recent past and our more than exciting future. Over the next several days and weeks, we will be communicating much of that to you.

You simply don’t deserve this kind of cowardly betrayal.

You have given so much and deserve so much more.

In the meantime, I want to make one statement to you tonight:

“I PERSONALLY GUARANTEE THAT THE CLEVELAND CAVALIERS WILL WIN AN NBA CHAMPIONSHIP BEFORE THE SELF-TITLED FORMER ‘KING’ WINS ONE”

You can take it to the bank.

If you thought we were motivated before tonight to bring the hardware to Cleveland, I can tell you that this shameful display of selfishness and betrayal by one of our very own has shifted our “motivation” to previously unknown and previously never experienced levels.

Some people think they should go to heaven but NOT have to die to get there.

Sorry, but that’s simply not how it works.

This shocking act of disloyalty from our home grown “chosen one” sends the exact opposite lesson of what we would want our children to learn. And “who” we would want them to grow-up to become.

But the good news is that this heartless and callous action can only serve as the antidote to the so-called “curse” on Cleveland, Ohio.

The self-declared former “King” will be taking the “curse” with him down south. And until he does “right” by Cleveland and Ohio, James (and the town where he plays) will unfortunately own this dreaded spell and bad karma.

Just watch.

Sleep well, Cleveland.

Tomorrow is a new and much brighter day….

I PROMISE you that our energy, focus, capital, knowledge and experience will be directed at one thing and one thing only:

DELIVERING YOU the championship you have long deserved and is long overdue….

Dan Gilbert

Majority Owner

Cleveland Cavaliers

I'm Juz Sayin

2010-05-20T17:27:00.000-05:00

Is it me or is Obama getting all this grief because of his skin tone?I'm mean I don't know a President in my 36 years that came without controversy or fault.Yet everything this man says is a problem.We send people overseas to fight wars that have nothing to do with us.Everyone knows the president has just as much power as the Prom King.He can only do what they allow.The legislation makes the vote,thats who really runs the country.Now they have the "tea party" groups coming in trying to shake up stuff.If we used all of that energy to fix some of the wrong in the world we might have a better place to live.As long as the people get what they want,their happy,once things get bad,they bail out.Turn they backs and talk trash.Some of us want the power,yet they don't want to take care of business.Until you walk in his shoes,.you can't really say what he's doing wrong.

Divalicious

Um Hale No!!

2010-05-18T12:38:00.000-05:00

Ok so I went to my daily therapy session today.I was excited cause I feel like I'm getting somewhere with this,I mean I have suppressed my feelings for so long till I have broken me down to the point that I was almost impossible to fix.I decided to get the help I felt I needed and it was hard at first because I thought I would be in a room with people on my level who were battling depression.WRONG!!!I was in a room with some real live firecrackers!!This man was trying to holla at me.I was like scuse me,I'm depressed u crazy as hale!!!He was tryna mac big time,and then he broke out into some kinda Islamic babble.I was like they got me next to the suicide bomber up in here.I must say 2 hours a day with these people make you be thankful for the lil bit thats left in you.I think I need a exorcise cause I do not want these demons latching on to me!!!! Where are the rosery beads and the holy water cause Lord knows I need it!!

Divalicious

Father Can You Hear Me - Tyler Perry (With Lyrics)

2010-05-18T06:59:00.000-05:00

BeBe & CeCe "Close To You"

2010-05-18T06:42:00.000-05:00

Whut Da Hale?!?!

2010-05-18T06:40:00.000-05:00

Ok I took Bubba to work this morning and for some reason he wants to go down the hill full speed ahead,I say Bubba slow down,he looks at me and says I'm not speeding.He going 50,whut you call that?!?!Then as I'm driving back home this man is standing outside at 6am watching the kids go to school.Whut da Hale?!?! 6am really?!?!?!I'm just in shock.who gets up that early to kid watch?

Divalicious

No Thank you!!!

2010-05-17T16:23:00.000-05:00

Every once in a while we all wonder if we still "got it".We don't want to do nothing with it,we just wanna know we still have a lil pull.I just wanna know what part of "No Thank You" don't you understand?!?!?

I'm in Quiznos with my William, Chinese guy says,"This your brother?" I say no he's my son.CM: Really?What's your secret? Me: Genetics.CM: You have a man?Me: Yes.CM turns to William,"How would you feel having Chinese Stepfather".Will: Don't care,but she's taken". CM: I know just asking.In walks Bubba. CM: Have a nice day,come back and see me if it don't work out".Let's just say we didn't tell Bubba till we got home.And no the food was not free nor did we get a discount!!

It's okay to look at the merchandise,but don't go picking it up and trying it on for size.Bubba loves Monica,Fantasia and Trina,and Gabby Union.I print him pics and point them out whenever,cause he need variety in his life,and he knows I love me some Dwight Howard,matter of fact Dwight is on the wall next to my bed,I see him when I wake up,and Bubba alright with that. Like I said we like what we like,we want what we want,but respect what you have,and don't go dipping into someone elses honey pot with out that Bee's permission.Give and receive the complement and keep it moving!!

Divalicious

Fix ya clothes!!!

2010-05-17T16:07:00.000-05:00

If I see one mo man with his pants round his ankle walking like he gotta boo boo I'mma trip his butt!!!I don't need nor do I want to see your drawers.Boxer dingy and got the nerve to be grinin in my face!"Hey ma whut's up?" "Your pant's should be!!"I'm not sure about the other women in America,but I don't want a man approaching me like that.You go to skinnin and grinnin in his face,he thinks that mess is welcomed!!I just wanna know why you taking all the clothes from the big and tall section just to look like a fool?Where is Homey the Clown when you need him?

The ladies ain off the hook either.If you have to hold on to your dress when you walk,it's too short.If Christmas is coming early,then you need to wrap that present back up.We all like to throw a lil cleavage out there,but you got city then tittie then you need to pull them babies down.Go invest in a good bra.Stop buying them dollar store bra's.You be walking and the back strap be up to your neck and your girls be sitting in your lap.

Since this is becoming more and more of an epidemic here are some clues that your clothes don't fit:

1.If you raise you ands over your head and your gut and rolls fall out.....You need a bigger shirt
2.If you bend over and all your presents fall out...you need a longer skirt.
3.If you gotta walk with one hand holding your pants and your legs gapped,pull up your darn pants and put a belt on!!!
4.If I can see all ya bness,you need a bigger size or you gon break out with something!!

I would also like for you to stop switching sizes.If your top and bottom are not the same,buy separates or buy the set and get it altered.Stop messing up the set!!!Nothing urkes me more than to fined a smedium with a extra large,Whut da Hale!!!!

What's all the fuss about?!?!?!

2010-05-17T10:36:00.000-05:00

I'm trying to figure out why Arizona is going through all these motions about people being over here illegally,I mean no one asked the Africans if they wanted to come over and work in the fields and get the hale beat out of them.Yet you allow the Europeans to come over and visit,but the Mexicans have to sneak over.If the Cuban's have one foot on American soil,they can stay,yet the Haitians are forced to "go back where they come from".If we are going to talk about being fair and send the illegal aliens back home,then I say don't be selective,send everyone back!!!Give the Indians back their land,and send everyone home!

Since that's not going to happen,learn to pick your battles,learn from you mistakes,and know that there is only one ruler of the world,and that's the creator.Stop picking through the bible to find the points that best suit your argument.Love is love,freedom is freedom,and we need to speak peace and equality for all mankind!!

Dicalicious

Corporate America vs Thug America

2010-05-17T10:04:00.000-05:00

Like many I have teenager,and I'm trying to teach them the difference in how society looks at us, compared to how we look at ourselves.It's harder than I thought.Today my 16 year old started his new school,he is required to wear a shirt,tie,slacks,and hard bottom shoes.Professional if you will.He sat in the van until the bus came because he didn't want anyone to see him dressed like that.He looked handsome and very professional.But to him,he looked lame.Because so many entertainers have made it cool to look like a thug,that's all they are trying to see.I told him I would hire him on the spot for the way he looked.His response was,I wouldn't.I remember when I would go looking for a job and people would look at me like I was crazy because I would wear panty hose,a business suit,closed in shoes,and my hair in a bun.I know see people go on interviews with pants,that are too small or too big,a shirt with all their bness hanging out,or a dress that they have to strategically sit down so they "christmas" won't come early!! When asked why they dress that way I am often told,I need to be comfortable.What happened to dressing to impress? What happen to being professional in the professional world? Thug America has taken over and we have allowed it.The only we are going to change this is to take back our "Corporate America" by dressing for success,setting the bar high,showing that hard work really does pay off and you don't have to be a rap star or an athlete to really be a successful individual!!

Divalicious

I'm Baaaaaaaaaaaaack

2010-05-16T05:52:00.000-05:00

I know it's been awhile but the Diva has been dealing with somethings.I know,we all go through some things and well this thang hit me like a ton of bricks.I will be posting more because thats part of my therapy.I have another blog I'm working on as well called Renewed Innocence,make sure you check it out.Don't forget to spread the word,if you got some positive stuff going on and you wanna get it out there,holla at me and it will get out!!Until next time,Be blessed

Divalicous

Enchantment-Gloria

2010-04-21T09:38:00.000-05:00

Angela Bofill I Try

2010-04-20T13:22:00.000-05:00

minnie riperton - inside my love

2010-04-20T13:20:00.000-05:00

INSIDE MY LOVE

2010-04-20T13:14:00.000-05:00