"Jared what are you doing here!" Jade was half excited half panicked.
"I was in the neighborhood on business and I decided to check on you".
"I'm fine ,I was taking a nap I'll call you later when I wake up".
"Jade what is wrong with you?Up until a few months everything was fine,now you don't come out,your always busy or out of town.I come by here to see how your doing and you all but slam the door in my face!"
Jared now is really not a good time,I'm really tired and I need this nap!"
"Jade it's one o'clock in the afternoon,why are you napping?Are you sick,you need anything?"
"No Jared I'm fine,I'm just.....
"Pregnant!Since you can't tell me I'll ask.How long did you think you could hide this from me Jade?We were careless that night,so there has always been a what if.But you went on like everything was fine.When you didn't show up to the annual Governor's Ball I knew it was something.That's the highlight of the year and you never miss it.Then I saw you leaving Felipio's the other day....
"I didn't see you in Felipio's."
"No you didn't cause If you did I would have known a lot sooner that my best friend was carrying my child!"
"Jared I can explain."
"Can you really Jade? I mean when was I gonna find out?When you could fit it in your got damn schedule!?"
"Jared come inside so we can discuss this in private".
"No Jade I don't want to discuss it.I have tried to show you that there is more to life than being a woman scorned,I love you more than you love yourself,but because of what Mitchell did,you punish yourself by being alone.You can not and you will not do that to my child!You want to be alone that's on you,but my child is not going to be tainted,my lawyer will contact your lawyer by the end of business!"
Jade stood there in disbelief.She was so hell bent on not getting hurt,she didn't realize she hurt herself more than anyone else could have.And now the thought of Jared seeking legal action against her is proving to be a bit much.
This is not how this was supposed to be.All I wanted was to be left alone,in my loneliness.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Sunday, January 16, 2011
The Loneliness pt3
Jade is still sitting in the exact same spot as she was when she got the call.Her ex husband whom she caught fucking her assistant had called to ask her she could pull some strings to get him a reservation to the Grand Opening to Jules newest restaurant.
"Mitchell,out of all the people to call why me.You have free range to all the who's who here in the Chi."
"Well for whatever reason Jade I can't get in and I need to be on the scene".
"Mitchell I don't hang out anymore so I can't help you"
"Can't you talk to your friend Jared?"
"I'll get back to you Mitchell".
"Thanks Jade,talk to you soon".
"Jared the nerve of him trying to use my friendship with you for his own selfish gain!"
Jade and Jared were sitting in her loft having a late dinner.She was trying to be there for Jared as he had been for her.
"Well Jade the reason he is not on the guest list is because I didn't like the way he treated you and I really don't care for him" Jared confessed.
"Trust me you owe me no explanation,I just can't believe how comfortable he was about it."
Without warning Jared leaned in and kissed Jade,She wanted to stop him so bad,yet his kiss was so breath taking she wanted it to last forever.Then out of nowhere Jade straddled Jared as their kiss grew more passionate.She undid his tie,he unzipped her dress,he buried his head into her bosoms and gently kissed each one in a quick one two motion he laid her down on the sofa and kissed her all the way to her happy trail.He teased her clit through her panties until she was soaking wet.She let a gasp out as he placed two fingers deep inside of her.Jared sent Jade's body into a frenzy as she came back to back.She was panting feverishly and just as she was on the brink of cumming again,he entered her,long deep strokes,their bodies beating to their own drums.Jared touched parts of her body that she had shut off.He woke up every part of her being,and when he came,they came together Jared and Jade made love twice more after that.And as soon as it started,it ended,Jade hinted about a long day,and Jared took the hint and left.Once again Jade was in her world of loneliness.No one made her go there but her.Jared and Jade talked about what happened the previous night and while Jared wanted to pursue something with Jade,she shut him down.Jared respected her decision.
Six months had passed since they had seen each other per Jade's request.So imagine the surprise Jared received when he stopped by Jade's loft unannounced to check on her.
"Mitchell,out of all the people to call why me.You have free range to all the who's who here in the Chi."
"Well for whatever reason Jade I can't get in and I need to be on the scene".
"Mitchell I don't hang out anymore so I can't help you"
"Can't you talk to your friend Jared?"
"I'll get back to you Mitchell".
"Thanks Jade,talk to you soon".
"Jared the nerve of him trying to use my friendship with you for his own selfish gain!"
Jade and Jared were sitting in her loft having a late dinner.She was trying to be there for Jared as he had been for her.
"Well Jade the reason he is not on the guest list is because I didn't like the way he treated you and I really don't care for him" Jared confessed.
"Trust me you owe me no explanation,I just can't believe how comfortable he was about it."
Without warning Jared leaned in and kissed Jade,She wanted to stop him so bad,yet his kiss was so breath taking she wanted it to last forever.Then out of nowhere Jade straddled Jared as their kiss grew more passionate.She undid his tie,he unzipped her dress,he buried his head into her bosoms and gently kissed each one in a quick one two motion he laid her down on the sofa and kissed her all the way to her happy trail.He teased her clit through her panties until she was soaking wet.She let a gasp out as he placed two fingers deep inside of her.Jared sent Jade's body into a frenzy as she came back to back.She was panting feverishly and just as she was on the brink of cumming again,he entered her,long deep strokes,their bodies beating to their own drums.Jared touched parts of her body that she had shut off.He woke up every part of her being,and when he came,they came together Jared and Jade made love twice more after that.And as soon as it started,it ended,Jade hinted about a long day,and Jared took the hint and left.Once again Jade was in her world of loneliness.No one made her go there but her.Jared and Jade talked about what happened the previous night and while Jared wanted to pursue something with Jade,she shut him down.Jared respected her decision.
Six months had passed since they had seen each other per Jade's request.So imagine the surprise Jared received when he stopped by Jade's loft unannounced to check on her.
The Loneliness pt2
"Alexis,I love you like a sister but I do not want to meet anyone!"
"Jade its been several years since you and Mitchell divorced and he is living his life,you should get on with yours!"
"Really Alexis give it a rest!"
"Your so pig headed Jade,you have let too many years go by being lonely because of what that bastard did to you,you deserve to be happy too!"
Jade knew there was truth to this but she just didn't want to be bothered.Unbeknown to anyone,Jade had met someone a year ago at a book signing.His name was Jared Miller.He had the prettiest smile she had ever seen.He was the owner of Jules, one the biggest fine dining restaurant chains in the country.They happen to meet by chance that day and they became fast friends.Jared was in a relationship which made it even easier for Jade to deal with him.She felt it was safe because he was off limits.The communicated often online or via text message.They would bump into each other at many social functions,but that was as far as it went.Then one day out of the blue Jared called to inform her that he and Lydia broke up.
WOW was all she could say.She didn't know how to take this news.Would it change the nature of their relationship?Jade liked being in the friend zone.What would she do if he wanted to step outside of that?
Jade had gotten accustom to the loneliness and she had to find a way to get Jared out of her life so that she could continue to be lonely.
"Jade did you hear me?"
"O I'm sorry what did you say Alexis?"
"I said your cellphone is ringing".
What know Jade thought out loud,I don't even recognize this number....
"Hello".
"Jade it's me Mitchell".
"Jade its been several years since you and Mitchell divorced and he is living his life,you should get on with yours!"
"Really Alexis give it a rest!"
"Your so pig headed Jade,you have let too many years go by being lonely because of what that bastard did to you,you deserve to be happy too!"
Jade knew there was truth to this but she just didn't want to be bothered.Unbeknown to anyone,Jade had met someone a year ago at a book signing.His name was Jared Miller.He had the prettiest smile she had ever seen.He was the owner of Jules, one the biggest fine dining restaurant chains in the country.They happen to meet by chance that day and they became fast friends.Jared was in a relationship which made it even easier for Jade to deal with him.She felt it was safe because he was off limits.The communicated often online or via text message.They would bump into each other at many social functions,but that was as far as it went.Then one day out of the blue Jared called to inform her that he and Lydia broke up.
WOW was all she could say.She didn't know how to take this news.Would it change the nature of their relationship?Jade liked being in the friend zone.What would she do if he wanted to step outside of that?
Jade had gotten accustom to the loneliness and she had to find a way to get Jared out of her life so that she could continue to be lonely.
"Jade did you hear me?"
"O I'm sorry what did you say Alexis?"
"I said your cellphone is ringing".
What know Jade thought out loud,I don't even recognize this number....
"Hello".
"Jade it's me Mitchell".
The Loneliness
"Jade I can't do this anymore".This kept playing over and over in Jade's head for over a year.Mitchell had left that message on her voice mail on what was to be their fifth year anniversary. Jade had met Mitchell when she was an up and coming magazine editor.He was an intern at a major record label.Within two years they both were the hottest power couple in Chicago.They lived a fairy tale life until Jade walked in and saw her assistant Jazmine bent over the Italian leather sofa Mitchell had custom made Jade on their one year wedding anniversary.
Nothing was said by either.The smug son of a bitch even went as far as finishing what he started.Jade left what she had called her home for the past seven years and went to a nearby Four Seasons and tried to piece together what had just happened.
Of all people why Jazmine?Did he hate me that much that he would sleep with the one person he knew would hurt me the most?A week had past before Jade could muster the strength to acknowledge what happen.That's when she heard the voice mail Mitchell left.He went on about how he had checked out the relationship months ago.He even went on to tell her how Jazmine did things that she was to stuffy to do.She couldn't believe what she was hearing.And s if it would make a difference he went on to say he was willing to split their assets in half and end the marriage as quickly as possible.She was in no way prepared for his next statement.Jazmine was pregnant with his child.
This was three years ago,and although the baby was not Mitchell's and he had since moved on,Jade had vowed to stay single and throw herself into her career.To everyone else she was very well put together,but at night when she was all alone she cried herself to sleep.She didn't like being alone.But after all she went through,she couldn't allow anyone in for fear she would be hurt again.
Nothing was said by either.The smug son of a bitch even went as far as finishing what he started.Jade left what she had called her home for the past seven years and went to a nearby Four Seasons and tried to piece together what had just happened.
Of all people why Jazmine?Did he hate me that much that he would sleep with the one person he knew would hurt me the most?A week had past before Jade could muster the strength to acknowledge what happen.That's when she heard the voice mail Mitchell left.He went on about how he had checked out the relationship months ago.He even went on to tell her how Jazmine did things that she was to stuffy to do.She couldn't believe what she was hearing.And s if it would make a difference he went on to say he was willing to split their assets in half and end the marriage as quickly as possible.She was in no way prepared for his next statement.Jazmine was pregnant with his child.
This was three years ago,and although the baby was not Mitchell's and he had since moved on,Jade had vowed to stay single and throw herself into her career.To everyone else she was very well put together,but at night when she was all alone she cried herself to sleep.She didn't like being alone.But after all she went through,she couldn't allow anyone in for fear she would be hurt again.
Friday, January 14, 2011
A Relationship thought
It's funny that single people want relationships and people in relationships want to be single.I often hear single people wanting the commitment of a significant other.What they don't realize is some mates look good on paper but they can't deliver the goods.Would you rather have someone who pays the bills and supplies the financial part,or would you rather have a partner who is there mentally as well as physically?
There is no unwritten rule that a man can't be there for you mentally,physically,and financially.I have proven time and time again to be a helpmate.I would for once in my life like to experience what it feels like to have a spiritual,and supportive partner in return.I wish that my efforts to be a good woman were not done in vain.It is so many that complain about not having a good woman or man and when they receive one,they break their necks trying to leave them.No sense in putting up a facade trying to play the role of a character you know nothing about.
Just because you are in the same room with someone does not mean your spending time with them.Just because we eat at the same table,don't mean we break bread together.In life there are givers and takers,and unfortunately alot of givers get taken because their heart is pure and the taker's isn't. I love the lessons I have learned in life.They taught me to be a better woman.That makes me a stronger woman who in turn know's how to survive the storm.
There is no unwritten rule that a man can't be there for you mentally,physically,and financially.I have proven time and time again to be a helpmate.I would for once in my life like to experience what it feels like to have a spiritual,and supportive partner in return.I wish that my efforts to be a good woman were not done in vain.It is so many that complain about not having a good woman or man and when they receive one,they break their necks trying to leave them.No sense in putting up a facade trying to play the role of a character you know nothing about.
Just because you are in the same room with someone does not mean your spending time with them.Just because we eat at the same table,don't mean we break bread together.In life there are givers and takers,and unfortunately alot of givers get taken because their heart is pure and the taker's isn't. I love the lessons I have learned in life.They taught me to be a better woman.That makes me a stronger woman who in turn know's how to survive the storm.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Priceless
Okay I have been going through some shyt for a minute know and well I said this year I was gonna be the Diva that I am and live out loud.Well as I was traveling down Divadom,I stumbled upon some shyt for your azz!I had been saying for a hot minute that I was tired of this relationship and it wasn't me.I wanted out.Imagine my surprise when I found out that I was never IN!
Seems that my name was registered wrong at the hospital when I was born and because of this,I lived half my life as one person and the other half as someone else only to find that who was first was who I really am.Aint that a bitch?
marriage $100.00
Divorce $299.00
Never being married in the first place............Priceless
Divalicious
Seems that my name was registered wrong at the hospital when I was born and because of this,I lived half my life as one person and the other half as someone else only to find that who was first was who I really am.Aint that a bitch?
marriage $100.00
Divorce $299.00
Never being married in the first place............Priceless
Divalicious
From Friends to Lovers and back to Friends.....
Can friends who incorporate sex into their friendship continue to be friends?
I think that is based on the friendship and honesty.If you can talk about your friend about any and everything then if and when you decide to take it to the next level,you should be comfortable expressing yourself mentally as well as physically.Not everyone is equipped to play grown up.Sometimes we always want what we can not have and once we have it,we don't know what's next.
I not only give my thoughts but I will share my experience so here goes.I had a friend that sent chills up my spine,his voice made my legs buckle and his smile made me wanna have his babies!I know right.He made me want to be all those things my man wouldn't let me be.We had a chemistry so strong till it wasn't safe to be around each other out of fear of leaving the friend zone.Well one day we gave into the heat and I felt shyt I ain know I could feel.Made me wanna put this Nikka to sleep every night!Not sure how he felt cause he had to play the "cool" role.I often think of what could have been,but I can't live my life on a hope and dream so Every time I think of the good,good I think of him.If would have stayed around,he would have known that I wasn't in the situation I thought I was in.I needed my friend for that moment but I lost him when he became my lover for that one night.
Dicalicious
I think that is based on the friendship and honesty.If you can talk about your friend about any and everything then if and when you decide to take it to the next level,you should be comfortable expressing yourself mentally as well as physically.Not everyone is equipped to play grown up.Sometimes we always want what we can not have and once we have it,we don't know what's next.
I not only give my thoughts but I will share my experience so here goes.I had a friend that sent chills up my spine,his voice made my legs buckle and his smile made me wanna have his babies!I know right.He made me want to be all those things my man wouldn't let me be.We had a chemistry so strong till it wasn't safe to be around each other out of fear of leaving the friend zone.Well one day we gave into the heat and I felt shyt I ain know I could feel.Made me wanna put this Nikka to sleep every night!Not sure how he felt cause he had to play the "cool" role.I often think of what could have been,but I can't live my life on a hope and dream so Every time I think of the good,good I think of him.If would have stayed around,he would have known that I wasn't in the situation I thought I was in.I needed my friend for that moment but I lost him when he became my lover for that one night.
Dicalicious
Ms. I Really Need it
Anticipation has been building up for years now
I can spot you in a crowded room
But you act like you scared to give into me
One day there will be nothing but space and opportunity
You had a girl
I had a man
I respected that
Now with that out the way I want my chance
To feel the heat between the sheets
Love faces is all good but good dick
brings out fuck faces
and I need you to take me to places
that I ain never seen
I need to ride that pole you got hidden in your jeans
I see you acting like you shy
That shyt played out in 92
I wanna fuck
U
To the best of my abilities
Give you the shyt I write about
Flip you up and turn you out
Make you feel the heat I deliver between these sheets
It's not a game
Sex off da chain
Love faces work for so long
But fuck faces show how deep the stroke been going
So come spread my hips as you kiss both my lips
Let me feel the pole till I loose control
Flip me six ways to Sunday
Make me skip to work on Monday
Leg still shaken
Ain no sense in faking
It is what it is
That good dick will get u
all the time
Now I gotta pop it back
To make it mine
O
I know you ain think
you was gonna get urs
And I ain get mine
Fuck love faces
I got what I needed
Till next week
Yours Truly
Ms. I really needed it
I can spot you in a crowded room
But you act like you scared to give into me
One day there will be nothing but space and opportunity
You had a girl
I had a man
I respected that
Now with that out the way I want my chance
To feel the heat between the sheets
Love faces is all good but good dick
brings out fuck faces
and I need you to take me to places
that I ain never seen
I need to ride that pole you got hidden in your jeans
I see you acting like you shy
That shyt played out in 92
I wanna fuck
U
To the best of my abilities
Give you the shyt I write about
Flip you up and turn you out
Make you feel the heat I deliver between these sheets
It's not a game
Sex off da chain
Love faces work for so long
But fuck faces show how deep the stroke been going
So come spread my hips as you kiss both my lips
Let me feel the pole till I loose control
Flip me six ways to Sunday
Make me skip to work on Monday
Leg still shaken
Ain no sense in faking
It is what it is
That good dick will get u
all the time
Now I gotta pop it back
To make it mine
O
I know you ain think
you was gonna get urs
And I ain get mine
Fuck love faces
I got what I needed
Till next week
Yours Truly
Ms. I really needed it
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Phuc U Symphony!
Time heals all wounds
Well it's not enough time in the day to heal the mess you made
You couldn't let well enough alone
You had to have me as your own
I was chilling in my world
You couldn't stand it you wanted me as your girl
I gave you the best of me
thinking you and I would always be
Stronger with every year
but everyday I shed a tear
for the love I once knew
Lost it all when I got with you
I got lost withing in myself
I sent word that I needed some help
You took the love I gave
And in turn I was your slave
I catered to you
but your heart was never true
I gave you the best that I got
You spit on it
And that says alot
For all the hell you've given me
Here is my Phuc you symphony!
Divalicious
Well it's not enough time in the day to heal the mess you made
You couldn't let well enough alone
You had to have me as your own
I was chilling in my world
You couldn't stand it you wanted me as your girl
I gave you the best of me
thinking you and I would always be
Stronger with every year
but everyday I shed a tear
for the love I once knew
Lost it all when I got with you
I got lost withing in myself
I sent word that I needed some help
You took the love I gave
And in turn I was your slave
I catered to you
but your heart was never true
I gave you the best that I got
You spit on it
And that says alot
For all the hell you've given me
Here is my Phuc you symphony!
Divalicious
The End
Why are you here?
I mean you have said time and time again you are not happy
You often remind me of the life you used to have before I entered
How much fun you used to have
All the things you used to do
You know all the intimate things you did to prove to me
That you were worth my time
Worth taking a chance on
Now I can't even get a second glance
When I put on something sexy
Or change my hair
You haven't looked at me in so long
You haven't noticed the ring is no longer there
I stopped wearing it years ago,because my fingers would swell
Then I stopped wearing it all together cause my life became a living hell
I wanted you to love
You wanted to just care
I wanted forever
You just wanted a spare
I gave you my heart
And you gave me your ass
To kiss when you found another
To add to your wish list
I was just a fantasy
And you tried to take the best of me
and make me undesirable for the next man
But see your plan won't work
Cause a real man will find me in his search
And complete the missing piece
Farewell to you
and all the hell you put me through
The end is here
I mean you have said time and time again you are not happy
You often remind me of the life you used to have before I entered
How much fun you used to have
All the things you used to do
You know all the intimate things you did to prove to me
That you were worth my time
Worth taking a chance on
Now I can't even get a second glance
When I put on something sexy
Or change my hair
You haven't looked at me in so long
You haven't noticed the ring is no longer there
I stopped wearing it years ago,because my fingers would swell
Then I stopped wearing it all together cause my life became a living hell
I wanted you to love
You wanted to just care
I wanted forever
You just wanted a spare
I gave you my heart
And you gave me your ass
To kiss when you found another
To add to your wish list
I was just a fantasy
And you tried to take the best of me
and make me undesirable for the next man
But see your plan won't work
Cause a real man will find me in his search
And complete the missing piece
Farewell to you
and all the hell you put me through
The end is here
Monday, January 10, 2011
I'm forever your lady,you forever my boo
When you need me I'm there
I'm down for you I sear
there will never be another
to take my place
I cook for you
I clean for you
do all the things them silly hoes won't do
I don't sweat what you do
cause your hustle strong
I know my place and how to sit quietly on the throne
I give you respect cause you are my king
I keep it right I keep it tight
my swag fly and my walk is mean
Aint no other gonna put up with you
I'm forever your lady
You forever my boo
I got your back no matter what
I raise my glass and toast to you
You the real deal
that's why I have your meals hot and ready
smoking at the table
bath water ready
sheets turned back
you ain got speak not one word
I'm down for you
I got your back
I'm forever your lady
You forever my boo
Lets keep it tight cause I got you.
I'm down for you I sear
there will never be another
to take my place
I cook for you
I clean for you
do all the things them silly hoes won't do
I don't sweat what you do
cause your hustle strong
I know my place and how to sit quietly on the throne
I give you respect cause you are my king
I keep it right I keep it tight
my swag fly and my walk is mean
Aint no other gonna put up with you
I'm forever your lady
You forever my boo
I got your back no matter what
I raise my glass and toast to you
You the real deal
that's why I have your meals hot and ready
smoking at the table
bath water ready
sheets turned back
you ain got speak not one word
I'm down for you
I got your back
I'm forever your lady
You forever my boo
Lets keep it tight cause I got you.
WANTED!!
Wanted,
A good man
One who understands that I am a woman
I was made to be his companion
His helpmate
His lover
His friend
His secret keeper
His lover for life
Wanted,
A man that is secure with his self
A hard worker
One who understands that communication is key
We must become a unit in order to be a driving force
To make a successful relationship
Wanted,
A man who is not afraid to be a man
Plan the date
Open the door
Walk beside me,not in front of me
Hug me just because
Kiss me like it's the last time
Wanted,
A man who does the things just because
A man who pays attention to the little things I do to make him happy
A man who knows that my world can get complicated
But as a team we can conquer anything
Wanted,
A man who is not afraid to pray with me
or for me
A man who inspires me to be the best me
Until I am presented with this man,
I will continue to mentally prepare myself to receive this good man,
I will clean out all those past hurts and make room for this good man
to enter into my life
I will let go my past disappointments
I will wash away all the pain that others have left
And when my wanted man is finally captured,
Our slate will be clean,we will buy all the materials together
And build together.
Divalicious
A good man
One who understands that I am a woman
I was made to be his companion
His helpmate
His lover
His friend
His secret keeper
His lover for life
Wanted,
A man that is secure with his self
A hard worker
One who understands that communication is key
We must become a unit in order to be a driving force
To make a successful relationship
Wanted,
A man who is not afraid to be a man
Plan the date
Open the door
Walk beside me,not in front of me
Hug me just because
Kiss me like it's the last time
Wanted,
A man who does the things just because
A man who pays attention to the little things I do to make him happy
A man who knows that my world can get complicated
But as a team we can conquer anything
Wanted,
A man who is not afraid to pray with me
or for me
A man who inspires me to be the best me
Until I am presented with this man,
I will continue to mentally prepare myself to receive this good man,
I will clean out all those past hurts and make room for this good man
to enter into my life
I will let go my past disappointments
I will wash away all the pain that others have left
And when my wanted man is finally captured,
Our slate will be clean,we will buy all the materials together
And build together.
Divalicious
Private Property!
You banged on my door
Pleading with me to let you in
I told you up front,I am not for games
Ive been saving my heart for someone who was worthy of it
You asked for my heart and in return you would give me your soul
Was this a same time transaction?
Or did you think you were gonna come in and take my heart and hold it in the palm of your hand
And command it to do as you pleased?
Did you think you were going to just stroll up in here and rearrange shyt the way it best suited you?
I mean you were the hunter for years,then as soon as I let you catch me,you decided there was more fun in the chase
than it was with the prey.
I listened as you went on and on about what a man wants and what he needs
I was that woman naturally
Then it became too much for you to handle
You said,"You are an amazing woman and you are going to make some man very happy"
Funny,I was only trying to make you happy.
You wanted the lease with an option to buy
Only to sublet the building to another potential buyer
So you could brag about living there first
When you come into my life,make sure your intentions are good
Don't try and tear don my wall knowing full dayum well you have no intentions
Of renovating that space into something beautiful and breath taking
My heart is private property so keep your ass off unless I invite you in!
Just because it is exposed does not mean you can touch it!
Pleading with me to let you in
I told you up front,I am not for games
Ive been saving my heart for someone who was worthy of it
You asked for my heart and in return you would give me your soul
Was this a same time transaction?
Or did you think you were gonna come in and take my heart and hold it in the palm of your hand
And command it to do as you pleased?
Did you think you were going to just stroll up in here and rearrange shyt the way it best suited you?
I mean you were the hunter for years,then as soon as I let you catch me,you decided there was more fun in the chase
than it was with the prey.
I listened as you went on and on about what a man wants and what he needs
I was that woman naturally
Then it became too much for you to handle
You said,"You are an amazing woman and you are going to make some man very happy"
Funny,I was only trying to make you happy.
You wanted the lease with an option to buy
Only to sublet the building to another potential buyer
So you could brag about living there first
When you come into my life,make sure your intentions are good
Don't try and tear don my wall knowing full dayum well you have no intentions
Of renovating that space into something beautiful and breath taking
My heart is private property so keep your ass off unless I invite you in!
Just because it is exposed does not mean you can touch it!
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Pay Attention
There is always thunder before lightening and a calm before the storm,so when things start happening,pay attention.If your mind is telling you no,follow your mind.They say the heart don't lie,yes it do,follow the little voice,it never leads you wrong!
Divalicious
Divalicious
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Your Body's Calling pt 3
How the hell we get in the bed and he just wanna cuddle? Nikka I coulda cuddled in my own bed with my pillow!I didn't realize i said it out loud until I hear him laugh his azz off.Jay I don't see or hear a dayum thing funny!
He starts to kiss the corners of my mouth,I turn my head and he follows it,I feel his fingers massage my nipples and it makes me so hot and bothered.He replaces his fingers with his lips and I can feel her getting moist.A moan escapes my lips as his kisses start to travel down south.
He reaches his destination and I feel electrical currents go through my body.He's sucking on the hood of my clit and just when I feel as if I can't take it anymore he puts a finger deep into the center of my earth.and within two strokes I have creamed all over his finger.My legs start to shake and I can't breathe.He continues to work me over and I'm surprised at my own self because I am riding his finger and tongue like I plan on riding him as soon as I can reverse the roles.He reaches for a condom,I and slides it on in a one two motion.And just as easy he slides it on he enters me.He starts with just the head,and then he gives me all that he has.I wrap my legs around his waist and I give him all of me. I tell him to lay on his back and I proceed to ride the wave to extacy.He grabs my hips and holds me tight and we both cum together.
I guess good things come to those who wait huh? Jay whispers in my ear as we try and catch our breath.
Yes it does I reply,Now we can cuddle all night,and we both laugh.........
He starts to kiss the corners of my mouth,I turn my head and he follows it,I feel his fingers massage my nipples and it makes me so hot and bothered.He replaces his fingers with his lips and I can feel her getting moist.A moan escapes my lips as his kisses start to travel down south.
He reaches his destination and I feel electrical currents go through my body.He's sucking on the hood of my clit and just when I feel as if I can't take it anymore he puts a finger deep into the center of my earth.and within two strokes I have creamed all over his finger.My legs start to shake and I can't breathe.He continues to work me over and I'm surprised at my own self because I am riding his finger and tongue like I plan on riding him as soon as I can reverse the roles.He reaches for a condom,I and slides it on in a one two motion.And just as easy he slides it on he enters me.He starts with just the head,and then he gives me all that he has.I wrap my legs around his waist and I give him all of me. I tell him to lay on his back and I proceed to ride the wave to extacy.He grabs my hips and holds me tight and we both cum together.
I guess good things come to those who wait huh? Jay whispers in my ear as we try and catch our breath.
Yes it does I reply,Now we can cuddle all night,and we both laugh.........
Your Body's Calling pt 2
It's 11:25p.m and I am in the elevator at the Rosen Hotel headed to the tenth floor for lord knows what.Curiosity got the best of me,I took a long hot bubble bath,and slowly sipped a glass of Moscato. After calming my nerves,I say to myself,I have nothing to lose.So I prepare to take the first step of coming out of my shell and living my life without regret.
As I step off the elevator and approach the door,I do a quick glance in the mirror.I am wearing a black gown with a split up to there five inch stiletto's,hair pinned up and my favorite scent sprayed on,24 Faubourg. I continue to the short distance to the door of the penthouse suite,I take in a deep breath and I knock on the door.
The door opens and Jay is standing there looking sexy as hell with a black tuxedo,black shirt white tie.The room is dimly lit and Luther Vandross is playing.I am floating on a cloud as he takes my hand and leads me to the center of the room.My favorite song begins,I get lost in his arms as he holds me tight,just as Luther is singing "If only for one night."
We seem to dance for what seems like hours,the candles are dancing to the same beat as we are,he goes to speak and I place a finger to his lips and shake my head no.I don't want words to destroy this moment that I have rehearsed in my mind for the past three years.He seems to read my mind and we continue to sway back and forth.There is a knock on the door that brings me back to reality.It's room service bringing up a bottle of champagne and strawberry's.
Jay tips the concierge and closes the door.I glance at the clock and realize it's almost midnight.I jump when the cork pops,Jay however thinks this is funny.He pours us a glass of bubbly just as the countdown begins.
Here's to a year with endless possibilities,I say,Cheers,says Jay.The clock strikes 12 and I get the one thing I have been longing for all night,a kiss.No peck on the cheek,or a bump on the lips,it's a full fledged kiss. One of those mind blowing,knee buckling kisses.
Trey Songz Love Faces is playing and I can't take it anymore and neither can he,jacket and tie come off,I then lead his hand to the zipper on my dress and he slowly slides it down the track. I unbutton the buttons on his shirt as he slides me out of my dress. I am standing there in a black lace bra and black crotchless thongs.I can feel him stiffen as he see's his package he's unwrapped.He leads me to the bedroom,he lays me on the bed and then proceeds to undress himself.He crawls in bed beside me and says, " I just want to hold you until we fall asleep.........WTF?
As I step off the elevator and approach the door,I do a quick glance in the mirror.I am wearing a black gown with a split up to there five inch stiletto's,hair pinned up and my favorite scent sprayed on,24 Faubourg. I continue to the short distance to the door of the penthouse suite,I take in a deep breath and I knock on the door.
The door opens and Jay is standing there looking sexy as hell with a black tuxedo,black shirt white tie.The room is dimly lit and Luther Vandross is playing.I am floating on a cloud as he takes my hand and leads me to the center of the room.My favorite song begins,I get lost in his arms as he holds me tight,just as Luther is singing "If only for one night."
We seem to dance for what seems like hours,the candles are dancing to the same beat as we are,he goes to speak and I place a finger to his lips and shake my head no.I don't want words to destroy this moment that I have rehearsed in my mind for the past three years.He seems to read my mind and we continue to sway back and forth.There is a knock on the door that brings me back to reality.It's room service bringing up a bottle of champagne and strawberry's.
Jay tips the concierge and closes the door.I glance at the clock and realize it's almost midnight.I jump when the cork pops,Jay however thinks this is funny.He pours us a glass of bubbly just as the countdown begins.
Here's to a year with endless possibilities,I say,Cheers,says Jay.The clock strikes 12 and I get the one thing I have been longing for all night,a kiss.No peck on the cheek,or a bump on the lips,it's a full fledged kiss. One of those mind blowing,knee buckling kisses.
Trey Songz Love Faces is playing and I can't take it anymore and neither can he,jacket and tie come off,I then lead his hand to the zipper on my dress and he slowly slides it down the track. I unbutton the buttons on his shirt as he slides me out of my dress. I am standing there in a black lace bra and black crotchless thongs.I can feel him stiffen as he see's his package he's unwrapped.He leads me to the bedroom,he lays me on the bed and then proceeds to undress himself.He crawls in bed beside me and says, " I just want to hold you until we fall asleep.........WTF?
Your Body's Calling pt 1
Bryn,hello are you listening to me?I'm sorry Lysa,what did you say?I was telling you about Steph but know I wanna know who got your mind wondering.Girl I'm sorry just thinking bout how I'm going to spend the New Years tonight.But to answer your question I told you, Steph only does what you allow him to do.You guys have an open marriage only he's the only one taking advantage of it.Your right admits Lysa,but why don't you join use for the New year.Look Lysa,I already told you,that was a one time deal.I don't want to jeopardize our friendship by playing these sex games with you and your husband.
Against her better judgment Bryn had agreed to have a threesome with Lysa ,who had been her best friend since the third grade,and her husband Steph.After a night of drinking,Bryn finally gave in only to receive a call from Steph for a solo session.Though she never told Lysa,she made it clear she would if Steph ever tried her like that again.
Bryn had sworn off sex after that happened and that was three years ago.Now all Bryn wanted to do was relieve this tension between her legs that plastic only seemed to be making worse.
I need body to body,she thought to herself.Bryn thought about her fantasy man Jay,he was everything she wanted in a man,yet the time never was right for them to get together.He understood everything about her though the never slept together.His smile stole her heart and his voice made her climax without even being touched.How can he have so much power and control and we have never been sexual?
Just as she is playing 21 questions there is a knock on the door.
Who is it?
Flowers In Bloom the voice said.
As I opened the door I was floored when I saw the large arrangement in front of me,it had to be two dozen of my favorite flowers,black magic roses.
Thank you I said as I tipped the delivery person.
I sat the vase on the counter and read the card.
Meet me tonight at 11:30pm in suite 1010 at the Rosen.
Jay
When we last spoke we weren't to happy by the end of the conversation.I had been invited for a girls night out and I really wanted to spend some time with him,but since I couldn't reach him,life goes on so I went to hang out with the girls.When I got there I found out he was preoccupied.Well aint that a bitch.So instead of enjoying my night,I sat fuming,why I don't know,but it was what it was.
Now I have an invite,and a decision on rather or not I should go to the Rosen in less than three hours.The waist down says go,the waist up says hey why not,but Im not sure if I am mentally prepared to do this.
Against her better judgment Bryn had agreed to have a threesome with Lysa ,who had been her best friend since the third grade,and her husband Steph.After a night of drinking,Bryn finally gave in only to receive a call from Steph for a solo session.Though she never told Lysa,she made it clear she would if Steph ever tried her like that again.
Bryn had sworn off sex after that happened and that was three years ago.Now all Bryn wanted to do was relieve this tension between her legs that plastic only seemed to be making worse.
I need body to body,she thought to herself.Bryn thought about her fantasy man Jay,he was everything she wanted in a man,yet the time never was right for them to get together.He understood everything about her though the never slept together.His smile stole her heart and his voice made her climax without even being touched.How can he have so much power and control and we have never been sexual?
Just as she is playing 21 questions there is a knock on the door.
Who is it?
Flowers In Bloom the voice said.
As I opened the door I was floored when I saw the large arrangement in front of me,it had to be two dozen of my favorite flowers,black magic roses.
Thank you I said as I tipped the delivery person.
I sat the vase on the counter and read the card.
Meet me tonight at 11:30pm in suite 1010 at the Rosen.
Jay
When we last spoke we weren't to happy by the end of the conversation.I had been invited for a girls night out and I really wanted to spend some time with him,but since I couldn't reach him,life goes on so I went to hang out with the girls.When I got there I found out he was preoccupied.Well aint that a bitch.So instead of enjoying my night,I sat fuming,why I don't know,but it was what it was.
Now I have an invite,and a decision on rather or not I should go to the Rosen in less than three hours.The waist down says go,the waist up says hey why not,but Im not sure if I am mentally prepared to do this.
At what point is your best not good enough?
When you have made all the necessary changes in your life and relationship,and there is still no change,when do you walk away and throw in the towel?
For years I have spent my life pleasing others,giving them what they need from me and not receiving the same respect.I have watched people say one thing and do another.I've watched I love you stay a word waiting for it to become an action.I never understood how you could love someone who hurt you over and over.Or why people pursue those who don't want to be with them,only to have the one they want treat them like shyt.I mean when is enough enough?When do we say this is not for me and walk away?
I was always dreaming of what I could have in life and then I went for it.The biggest mistake was the other person didn't want the same things.I thought that having his dinner ready when he came home and making sure all his needs were met was the answer,I had been told by previous boo's that I would make future husband a lucky man one day.No one prepared me for the lesson in selfishness 101.
I am a giver who gives from the depths of my soul.And I ended up with one who knew I would give the best of me and not complain.And at times when I felt I was being taken for granted I expressed it and was told,"don't do nothing else for me" .That was the first indication that Im dealing with a boy not a man.
I lingered in that situation for seven years because I didnt want to be alone.It doesnt matter if you have a warm body in your bed if their soul is cold.Now I have my up in my mind that I can only live for me,he can't understand why Im leaving.
If I allow it then it's my choice,If I walk away,I am standing on my own!
Divalicious
For years I have spent my life pleasing others,giving them what they need from me and not receiving the same respect.I have watched people say one thing and do another.I've watched I love you stay a word waiting for it to become an action.I never understood how you could love someone who hurt you over and over.Or why people pursue those who don't want to be with them,only to have the one they want treat them like shyt.I mean when is enough enough?When do we say this is not for me and walk away?
I was always dreaming of what I could have in life and then I went for it.The biggest mistake was the other person didn't want the same things.I thought that having his dinner ready when he came home and making sure all his needs were met was the answer,I had been told by previous boo's that I would make future husband a lucky man one day.No one prepared me for the lesson in selfishness 101.
I am a giver who gives from the depths of my soul.And I ended up with one who knew I would give the best of me and not complain.And at times when I felt I was being taken for granted I expressed it and was told,"don't do nothing else for me" .That was the first indication that Im dealing with a boy not a man.
I lingered in that situation for seven years because I didnt want to be alone.It doesnt matter if you have a warm body in your bed if their soul is cold.Now I have my up in my mind that I can only live for me,he can't understand why Im leaving.
If I allow it then it's my choice,If I walk away,I am standing on my own!
Divalicious
Happy New Year!!!
May 2011 find you in good health and spirits.A little more open minded,a little more understanding,and more willing to live out loud.
I will continue to speak my mind,more focus on the real,no attention to the bs.I am shedding my skin and I think Im going to like it!
Happy New Year Everyone!
Divalicious
I will continue to speak my mind,more focus on the real,no attention to the bs.I am shedding my skin and I think Im going to like it!
Happy New Year Everyone!
Divalicious
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