Saturday, January 1, 2011

At what point is your best not good enough?

When you have made all the necessary changes in your life and relationship,and there is still no change,when do you walk away and throw in the towel?

For years I have spent my life pleasing others,giving them what they need from me and not receiving the same respect.I have watched people say one thing and do another.I've watched I love you stay a word waiting for it to become an action.I never understood how you could love someone who hurt you over and over.Or why people pursue those who don't want to be with them,only to have the one they want treat them like shyt.I mean when is enough enough?When do we say this is not for me and walk away?

I was always dreaming of what I could have in life and then I went for it.The biggest mistake was the other person didn't want the same things.I thought that having his dinner ready when he came home and making sure all his needs were met was the answer,I had been told by previous boo's that I would make future husband a lucky man one day.No one prepared me for the lesson in selfishness 101.
I am a giver who gives from the depths of my soul.And I ended up with one who knew I would give the best of me and not complain.And at times when I felt I was being taken for granted I expressed it and was told,"don't do nothing else for me" .That was the first indication that Im dealing with a boy not a man.

I lingered in that situation for seven years because I didnt want to be alone.It doesnt matter if you have a warm body in your bed if their soul is cold.Now I have my up in my mind that I can only live for me,he can't understand why Im leaving.
If I allow it then it's my choice,If I walk away,I am standing on my own!

Divalicious

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