Change is needed

Once you have embarked on your process, you must decided what direction your journey will lead to next.
No one made me get married. I wanted to be saved from numerous situations only to create even more complex ones.The signs were there yet I walked past them thinking that with time and patience things would be better. I am a woman who needs her mind,body and soul stimulated. I need mental and physical stimulation and well I had neither. I am a firm believer that change begins with you.I didn't like who I was with or who I was becoming and after I tried everything I could think of, it was time to let it go.
I needed out before I began to hate him or he began to hate me. I knew it was official when he grabbed my arm and I literally got sick. The people around me saw the drastic change that occurred in the seven years he and I were together and the major difference it made when it was over.
Doctors had no idea how to treat me,no idea what to do with me,and they pretty much had given up on me.I had faith that I would be made whole again,even if no one else believed.

I am happy to report that I am back to doing what makes me happy. I wake up every morning with a smile on my face,and some days it hurts because I have not smiled in so long. When I laugh ,I really laugh,from deep within.What's even crazy is people say "girl you glowing",I start blushing, because I never realized it until now.
It feels good to have people in your corner for the right reasons. I have my sisters who go to bat for me and they truly only want me to be happy.No matter what I tend to go through,They are just a skip,hop,and jump away.

The fun loving energetic me has resurfaced and I have thrown caution to the wind and I am just ready to enjoy life and all it has to offer. It's funny how the older people see me and say somebody got your nose wide open. I am often saying un uh. But truth be told,I am just happy. I haven't been this happy in years.The last time I cried tears of joy was when my kids gave me an award for Mothers Day.

It's been a long time coming.And I am glad for second chances.Often times we have to go through a process to learn a lesson and to be able to know how to take care of a blessing when we receive it. Many things we want,we don't get right away because it's not meant for us at that time.We have to stay true to ourselves and wait for our season.